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I’m much more calmer these few days. It felt weird to be so emotionally weak for the past week. But I guess everyone has their own problems to deal with. That’s why I hate to be so 重感情 sometimes. But if I was more heartless, cold and cruel, I will no longer be me. Then I would not have friends. Which is also why I wonder how people can be firm and feeling-less sometimes. I hate them and admire them at the same time.

I picked up the courage to initate conversation with someone today. Somehow, I feel happy about it. Although, throughout the short conversation I did have millions of nasty things that happened before going through my head. I forgive, but never forget. Nevertheless, I believed that my words means alot of this person and I sincerely believe that they will appreciate it. At least, it just shows that there is still this little angel side of me. I always thought that the older you grow, you more evil you get. I guess I was wrong. I guess it’s because the older you grow, the less kindness you tend to WANT to give.

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I know it’s past 12 midnight… but…

HAPPY 2 AND HALF YEARS to KENNETH KOH =D

I feel that there’s nothing else I need to say. Cause like you said, after a while, there’s nothing much to talk about… cause there’s no need to talk, you will just understand what I mean.

-x-

I just hope everything falls into place for everyone. Nothing is perfect in the world. Which is why… there is so much challenges in life.

which is why I got a supp exam…

which is why I had such a rough week…

which is why I cried so much…

which is why I can’t sleep at night…

which is why I can’t see nicnic bummie until she’s back…

which is why I’m so far apart from my beloved cousin…

which is why I don’t quite understand the ending of Little Prince…

which is why I failed one unit…

which is why “C” is so sad…

which is why “R” haven’t been able to see him…

which is why “F” is still waiting…

which is why nothing is perfect…

So let us just make the most out of my lives ya? Cheer up everyone.

YES! I finally finished my supp~

And that’s allllll I want to say.

Now I need to plan:

- What to buy for Winnie for her bday

- SHOPPING~

- Beach trip w nic bum and shannie

-x-

That’s all for today. Will update again soon!

I missed alot of people…

- Winnie who has gone missing for few days

- Nic nic bum who has now gone to Margaret River to enjoy her holidays

- Corene my dear cousin who I have not seen for a long time

- Jane Jane who is busy working

- KG who I have lost contact with ever since karaoke

… and many many more but I missed YOU the most. YES I DO!

-x-

想你想到睡不着

一想到这个星期五 我哭了

因为 我们经过了太多 我让你开心又担心

我在想自己是不是有对你很好 也想要为你做什么才能对你好一点

想起了我做过的事情

我不是怕你难过 是怕你难过的时候没有人让你靠

我不是怕你走掉 是怕你一个人会寂寞

我不是怕别人把你从我带走 是怕带走你的人不会珍惜你

我不是怕被你骂 是怕我做的事会让你不开心

前面的路太长了 我怕我们走不完

但我又怕路不够长 我怕不能陪着你

又怕失去 又怕拥有

怎么办 我是不是想太多了

但是 安静的夜晚 让我感到有那么一点点地寂寞

听着这首歌 让我不知不觉的又留下了眼泪 因为 我在想你

I’m studying notes from William before the actual exam and…

Hehehe.. made any discovery yet?

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Yup, you got it!

I just don’t know how to describe my feelings right this moment. But it looks something like this…

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Been feeling like this for the past few days. I think stress are getting into my head physically and mentally! Those cortisol and adrenaline pumping in my blood. Oh no~ I’m getting a high glucose levels. Growing fat!

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Even blogging makes me think of studying. Oh gosh, what have I become?

I just hope that I will return to normal soon. The only happiness I get is reading blogs, sleeping and of course, seeing Ken. Supps really kill my holiday mood. Let’s just hope that I will pass this one and move on.

Zzz. Heading off. Moodless for more words to come off out my keyboard.

Take care everyone!