家里要有一个我最爱的你。

我要每天比你早起床，然后做你爱吃的早餐。

用最好玩的方法叫爱赖床的你起身。

然后，把你打扮得帅帅的，用我的吻送你快乐的去上班。

打理家，换床单，去买你最喜欢用的洗发精。 让你能够有一个温暖的家。

我会煮着饭，等你累了一天的回到家 -  回到最简单却最温暖的家。

然后，回到家的第一件事就是抱着我，对我说：

“老婆，我回来了”

- x - x - x -

每一个幸福的瞬间，都会有一个过程。

几时才会轮到我呢？

Do you love with your eyes? - you only use your eyes to look at other people’s attractive appearance.

Do you love with your bank account? - you only need someone to be your ATM.

Do you love with your mirror? - you only love yourself.

Or, do you love with your heart?

LOOK AT ME.

I may be my boyfriend’s girlfriend. I may turn up in your gatherings. I may be patiently listening to your guy conversations.

BUT I AM NOT ONE OF THE BOYS.

So don’t treat me like one, and don’t expect me to be one!

I can be cool with silly jokes, but I don’t expect to be insulted. I have feelings. I have emotions. I AM A GIRL.

So treat me like one. Treat ME with respect. Treat me like you would treat every other girl on the planet.

Maybe that means that I’m one more step ahead in life.

One of the most important things I was reminded to do is to say sorry.

Someone posted their status on facebook saying why sorry is the hardest word to say. Just like our classic song - sorry seems to be the hardest word.

But it is.

It’s harder than saying I love you.

Simply because of two very important traits of humans. Courage and ego.

To say sorry, it means you have bring up all of your courage AND let down all of your ego.

But most people don’t understand something else…

Sorry doesn’t necessarily mean that you admit your wrongdoings.

Sorry doesn’t make other people look down on you.

In fact, I believe that saying sorry brings you to a whole new level of maturity.

Sometimes, sorry just mean one very simple thing - you cherish your relationship/friendship/kinship to whoever you’re saying sorry to.

It’s kinda like a compromise.

Because you want the other person to know that you still love them, and even though you didn’t do anything wrong, you still wish to say “sorry” to remove that lock in your heart. In return, they would say sorry to you too (whatever the reason).

So don’t ever feel bad about saying sorry. It may be hard, but it is actually very simple and harmless.

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So anyway! I haven’t been updating. But I’m on holidays at the moment and definitely enjoying life :]

Of course, I’ve been staying away from shopping…

(Can’t believe I resisted buying this beautiful baby here!! This is definitely my next target.)

Staying away from eating too much junk…

(especially at like 2am, watching 康熙来了)

AND being hard working on the facial products :]

(That was my beautiful skin and slim face 2 weeks ago!! I’m now recovering from the most horrible breakouts of my life!)

So hope you guys are updated enough, and is enjoying life :]

Some are shy.

Some are bold.

Some are predictable.

Some are weird.

Mine? I am WEIRD.

Sometimes, I do the weirdest things without even realising that I’m doing it. Let me tell you guys something about myself. I’m not a person who’s afraid of losing but I dislike being shamed or 没面子(lose face).

So when I get into an arguement, I may be right or wrong at whatever I’m arguing about to the other person, but in the end I will stop. Stop as in I will wait for the other person to talk to me first before I talk to them (how childish uh!) and before that, I will definitely be cursing the person in my head but silently and angrily facing the other way.

This leads to a very weird thing. Crying.

That also brings me back to the 没面子 bit. I will always cry silently whether I’m in public, my own room or in the shower (yes I do cry in the shower). Everytime when an arguement becomes silence, I will keep it in my heart. It’s qute incredible because sometimes I can control my tears so well. Other times… not so well.

I remember having a conversation with Shan the other day and she mentioned that 2 years ago, I cried on the train and no one knew why. I totally forgot about that incident!

But I do know that it’s another weird way of expressing myself…

Whenever I’m stress or upset by something or someone, I tend to keep it in my heart. I may look strong but when something is mentioned too many times, I will start to break down. Not only that, I will break down and cry out all the tears that I haven’t been able to cry for the past I don’t know how many times!

When I was young, I was a quiet and shy girl who doesn’t know how to express myelf. Whenever I like something or someone, I will not show it to anyone.

For example, if my mom asked me what I wanted to eat, I would say I don’t know (but in actual fact, I DO have something that I LOVE to eat). When she points to something I don’t want, I will shake my head. When she points to something that I want, I refuse to nod and yet I will either say “don’t know” or hesitate.

That was always the same with boys. Quiet and shy me will never let others know which boy I was eyeing in the class. Neither does people know that I always eye the little boy whom was as quiet and shy as me. Because no one notices him, except for me. So he is special, different and the one and only.

However, that definitely changed when I was older. Because I was quickly surrounded by boys going through puberty =.= which is also around the time when they’re the most attention seeking.

Which is also why I’m with the most attention seeking guy in Chinese school aka walking highlighter now :]

Nowadays, I am trained.

Maybe it’s because I’ve been quiet, shy, poor, uneducated, bullied, small, inconfident. So, I’ve learnt to look on the bright side of life while learning how to welcome the good and awesome stuff in my life and yet be aware of the bad stuff.

I’m not sure if I can handle every single thing thats thrown at me (well not literally) but I do hope that I’ve became stronger and yet still very vulnerable from being a mere human being… with expressons.