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LOL, my title is basically true except they’re two separate things.

I spent one whole week at home watching the korean series, You’re Beautiful XD

It’s a really nice drama series that can make you laugh and admire the pretty boys in there :]

Except I didn’t really cry throughout the whole 16 episodes. I probably only got a little teary today when I watched the last episode. But it wasn’t because it’s sad, it’s because it’s touching XD

The female actress in there is soooooo cute!

As for the “I’m selfish” bit, it’s true as well.

Have you ever heard of this saying: You may be able to get along with someone, but you might not be able to live with them?

Well, to add on… if you can even get along with someone, you will never be able to live with them.

I have had a few friends that lived/stayed in my room in the past… my favourite person to live with is Nicole.

Other than her being my best friends and I can totally get along with her, she is like so considerate while living in my house. She is mature and polite to my parents and sisters. She stayed with me for about 1 month but it only felt like 1 week! I wished she could stay longer… the only thing I was annoyed at is how small my room is! So there wasn’t enough space for two. However, the cosy 1 month with Nicole was very nice.

On another hand, my cousin has been staying in my house and room for 1 week… and it felt like 1 year.

=.=

I cannot describe how much I do not wish to live with her… but it’s because our personality totally clashed. She doesn’t understand alot of things that I understand. She take things for granted. She is inpolite, pushy and extremely selfish.

Which brings me back to the point, why am I selfish too?

Well, because she did alot of things that I don’t like. Yet, I am so judgemental on her. I discriminate and scold her because of the things that she did.

So I guess that makes me selfish too?

Partly, my actions are for my family because alot of them are putting up with the same situation as me. However, a big of it is for myself.

One of my friend once told me that if I don’t like something, I should say it out. Voicing your opinions and unhappiness is something that not everyone can do. But if you can master that, you are more true to yourself and your own human nature. Is that true?

I don’t know.

Because alot of the things that I did these few days have been mean and selfish. But if someone keeps on taking advantage of you, does that mean you should still be nice to them regardless? Well, alot of people might say yes. Because people who are bad to you will get their karma.

But if you think about it, perhaps people are mean to you because they think that you’re easily bullied and being brought down. So does showing that you are strong and fierce means that they will stop doing all the nasty things to you?

I guess we will never find out the answer.

But for the situation that I was placed into, I chose to stand up for myself and my family. I don’t know if it is right or wrong. But in this world, nothing is perfect. Perhaps I will get punished someday for being mean. But I won’t stand there and let someone push me over and not say a single word.

Because I am me.

This is me.