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Everyone have different ways of expressing themselves…

Some are shy.

Some are bold.

Some are predictable.

Some are weird.

Mine? I am WEIRD.

Sometimes, I do the weirdest things without even realising that I’m doing it. Let me tell you guys something about myself. I’m not a person who’s afraid of losing but I dislike being shamed or 没面子(lose face).

So when I get into an arguement, I may be right or wrong at whatever I’m arguing about to the other person, but in the end I will stop. Stop as in I will wait for the other person to talk to me first before I talk to them (how childish uh!) and before that, I will definitely be cursing the person in my head but silently and angrily facing the other way.

This leads to a very weird thing. Crying.

That also brings me back to the 没面子 bit. I will always cry silently whether I’m in public, my own room or in the shower (yes I do cry in the shower). Everytime when an arguement becomes silence, I will keep it in my heart. It’s qute incredible because sometimes I can control my tears so well. Other times… not so well.

I remember having a conversation with Shan the other day and she mentioned that 2 years ago, I cried on the train and no one knew why. I totally forgot about that incident!

But I do know that it’s another weird way of expressing myself…

Whenever I’m stress or upset by something or someone, I tend to keep it in my heart. I may look strong but when something is mentioned too many times, I will start to break down. Not only that, I will break down and cry out all the tears that I haven’t been able to cry for the past I don’t know how many times!

When I was young, I was a quiet and shy girl who doesn’t know how to express myelf. Whenever I like something or someone, I will not show it to anyone.

For example, if my mom asked me what I wanted to eat, I would say I don’t know (but in actual fact, I DO have something that I LOVE to eat). When she points to something I don’t want, I will shake my head. When she points to something that I want, I refuse to nod and yet I will either say “don’t know” or hesitate.

That was always the same with boys. Quiet and shy me will never let others know which boy I was eyeing in the class. Neither does people know that I always eye the little boy whom was as quiet and shy as me. Because no one notices him, except for me. So he is special, different and the one and only.

However, that definitely changed when I was older. Because I was quickly surrounded by boys going through puberty =.= which is also around the time when they’re the most attention seeking.

Which is also why I’m with the most attention seeking guy in Chinese school aka walking highlighter now :]

Nowadays, I am trained.

Maybe it’s because I’ve been quiet, shy, poor, uneducated, bullied, small, inconfident. So, I’ve learnt to look on the bright side of life while learning how to welcome the good and awesome stuff in my life and yet be aware of the bad stuff.

I’m not sure if I can handle every single thing thats thrown at me (well not literally) but I do hope that I’ve became stronger and yet still very vulnerable from being a mere human being… with expressons.

I really really really really really dislike killing pests cause my dad once said that it was a cruel thing to do.

But pests are called pests for a reason, right?

1. Small bugs eg beetles and ants

They are easy to kill because they seemed so harmless. You can just smack it and chuck them into the bin without worrying.

2. Lizards

I hardly come across them in Australia but they do exist!! I never actually killed one in my house because they usually hang around outside.

3. Spiders

I used to be sooooo freaking scared of them because of their appearance. I remember that the first time I visited Perth for holiday, I was in a room with my Mom and when we were about to open the door, a MASSIVE spider (which is also hairy) was crawling right beside the door knob.

Nowadays, I don’t see spiders that big anymore.

I would just inspect it first (to see if it’s a redback) then I would spray pesticide and chuck them away. The easy thing about killing a spider is that they don’t run very fast and are usually motionless until they’re touched.

4. Crickets

They are noisy at night, and can jump really high which makes them really hard to catch!!

Hence, I never kill them anyway. I would usually just grab a broom, and sweep it to the direction out of the house. So it will be out of the house, but never dead.

5. Cockroaches

They are the hardest one to kill and I’m actually SCARED of them.

Some cockroaches fly, you see. They all look disgusting, brown and they run really really fast. The scariest bit of cockroaches are that they are unpredictable and sneaky!!! They can be motionless for 1 second or run for the lives for the next without even being triggered to do so! They can crawl up any surface crawl-able, ewww!

Of course, Australian cockroaches are very slim and flat! So, you might find that they can actually hide ANYWHERE.

*cringes*

But the weakest point of cockroaches are that they breathe through their back, so you can spray very little pesticide on their backs, and they will suffocate and die.

*cringes even more*

6. Mices/rats

They are worse than cockroaches. They are simply too hard to catch.

They roam around in the kitchen and eat everything they can. You will know if your kitchen has one (or more than one) when you see that the corner of break package is bitten and bits of bread is gone. I tell you, it happens EVERYWHERE.

What’s worse is that some person would not even know the existance of mices in their own kitchen until they have seen one!

They are very sneaky and smart!

They will usually come out at night for night and hide in the daytime to avoid being seen. Even if you ever seen them, you will never see them for more than 1 second because they run so damn fast! You will never find where they are cause they are brillant at hiding.

Never put mouse trap and cheese though cause they don’t work =.= and my sister managed to stepped on one before. The best way is definitely to put the sticky trap that smells like food (hopefully they smell LIKE food) or rat poison.

The sticky trap will trap the mouse but it is up to you what you want to do with it. The rat poison will definitely kill the mouse but you will not know where it end up dying, until you found it.

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Actually I’m writing all these because I did have a “battle” with a cockroach last night. It took me more than half an hour to successfully kill it.

It will actually crawling on top of the kitchen bench where I was standing, waiting for the water to boil. I couldn’t scream because it was 2am and everyone was sleeping =.=

So I quietly took a small broom and dustpan and pesticide. I HATE this cockroach because it was hanging around the kitchen area and I didn’t want to spray pesticide there so I wont contaminate anything that we use to cook food. So the cockroach ran under the microwave, and toaster. That’s where my little LED torch came in handy!!

It was hiding for so long that I couldn’t find it even with my torch.

Until the cockroach decided to come out from hiding and flea the scene, I quickly spray pesticide on it and it turned upside down, legs facing the ceiling, tongue sticking out and dead.

In addition, I treat it to some yummy toilet E.coli water by flushing it down the toilet.

*evil laughs*

and then…

*cringes*

But I couldn’t sleep for almost 1 hour because I always get that touchy feeling after killing a pest. It makes me feel like another one is gonna be crawling on me when I’m sleeping!!

=.=

I believe that there is no good or bad luck.

If something bad happens, and you don’t attempt to pick yourself up then you will definitely have bad luck in your life.

1) The year where I’ve built up a closer friendship with different people, and also a year where I’ve got an opportunity to show people my true reflection.

2) The year where I visited Melbourne

3) The year where I went on a triple date

4) The year where I became more vain

5) The year where I crazily beat my own high score in tetris

6) The year where I turn 20

7) The year I took the time to self learn how to cook

The year I got rid of glasses and start wearing contact lenses

9) The year we bought Snowflake

10) The year we celebrated our 3 year anniversary