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That’s the first time I’ve actually showed so many anger in someone’s words. I guess I’m doing so just to show concern as a friend cause after all, I just want things to turn out better in their life. But my words has been taken the wrong way - the way in which I’m fully uptight about his own matter.

Gee! I really want to give advice without showing too much opinion. But why are people so… grr!

It’s sad that people can’t make up their own mind with their own future and they have to let people that is just non influential in their life to make the decision for them. It’s not the way to go. Not in the reality life anyway.

Sorry for the double posting but…

I miss Ken

Haven’t been blogging for a few days. That is mainly because last week was an extremely busy and hectic week for me. It was with a mixture stressful, depressed, excited and many other emotions.

But it’s okay! Weekends are always good for me to reflect on the things I’ve done during the week and of course, to think through the good and bad. Then I will finally make a decision to continue living a better life. Out of the this week, excluding today and tomorrow, the best day was yesterday

Well, despite the fact that I had to finish off my med lab report and pre-lab for human biology, I still think that it was a better day as compared to Monday to Thursday. I guess the evening made up for the almost-hectic morning, which felt great! Because by 12pm, I have already handed in the reports and finished my pre-lab with the help of Zamri. There is always this sense of relief when everything has been handed in by Friday. The human biology tute/lab from 12 to 2 was quite fun too. We did do work but at the same time, we chatted about different weird things.

After human biology, it was the best time of all. Get to see Ken (Happy happy!!) and spend time with him. He drove us down to Morley to get his new radar detector which was cool - because it’s blue Then we rushed back to pick up his brothers from school. After that, we went back to his house for dinner. Just another normal Friday… simple but cute.

We decided to go out that night so dragged Andu along to Karringyup to see Nat. It was really nice to see her again after so long. I love catching up with friends… hehe. Reminds me of the times when it was after TEE and holidays. That freedom without the burden and work load from uni. And I’m glad that Nat is happily attached So there we are. Four of us. Satting in a room, playing uno and chatting about lame stuff *cough* Andu *cough*. Ken kept winning uno and Nat kept losing. It was so funny! We then decided to get down to Scarborough to get foooood. Although it was a cold day, but I still manage to survive, with Ken’s leavers jumper ^^. Hehehe. It reminds me of the times when I first get to know him. Sweeet. Suddenly, I found the sweet things that he does for me that I don’t realise at times. I’m so… slow

We then head down to the beach - it’s funny how I am always hitting the beach late at night - especially when it’s always so cold. But Ken’s jumper kept me warm enough to sat there for a while. Me and Ken sat there hugging to keep warm while Andu and Nat was digging holes on the sand? LOL. Kinda broke the sweet and romantic moment but haha, it was all good. I can still feel that moment in my heart. Not only the sweetness of love but also the sweetness of friendship. Then suddenly think of Nicole and Mary bummies. Wish they were there to share that sweetness with me.

After that, we sent Nat home and went back down South and sent Andu home. Followed by me. During the trip, I fall asleep cause I was tired due to the long day. Although Ken insisted that I should keep his jumper just to walk into the house after getting down the car to keep warm, but I still gave it back to him. Haha, that jumper smells nice now So got home, took a shower and wanted to sms Ken to say good night but I realised I felt my phone in this jumper. So called him with my house phone and then went Zzz.

Got my phone back this morning with an unknown miss call but oh well. Hehe. Still have memories of last night in my head. I’m so glad there are still days like this to make me smile. Reminds me of…

Hehe. This is a picture taken at the pancake house. Me, Mary and Nicole made a smiley face with.. food. It’s okay if you can’t see it cause I guess only the peoples who made it can see it. Lol. Miss those moments. Miss all the sweet moments I had in life. Hope there are more to come.

If you have the heart do something, you will do the best you can.
But if you don’t, no matter how hard you try, it will never be a piece of art. Because there is no heart in it.

It’s really hard to always stay strong because there are times where you will be down and in need. When things happen, I tend to think a lot. There are many things in my life that I appreciate but I never really think about the fact that if it is worth appreciating. Deep inside, I still believe that there is good and bad karma in this world. Good people will have good things in return. But on another hand, some things really contradict this kind of thoughts on me.

I think I’m really turning crazy. I feel that I’m all alone again. Even with lots of encouragement, I still feel alone. I guess there is never one real encouragement that someone gave me that really touched my heart. I guess it is because people don’t like to know too much and they can’t know too much about the way I think. I was right, no one in this world can really understand me, except myself. That goes the same for everyone else. Seem so lost again.

People drifting away and further apart. There is not much of closeness anymore. You live in your own world.

Just like Nicole said, ‘People always live in their own world. Unless there are circumstances that let them see.’

Not even the closest person can understand me?