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As you can see from the title, Easter break has started and I am soooo happy. But then again, I promise myself that I would study and use this time to catch up with homework and assignments

So yesterday was the last day of uni before easter break starts. I had to get to uni at 9am to do some work which I did. Forget that I had to do my pre-lab for Human Bio. Then forgot to bring my Human Bio worksheets as well. Bleh. Had to waste money photocopying them. Oh well. All good. These days, uni is filled with lectures like this…

That is my Chemistry lecture on Friday @ 10am. Kinda boring so I was listening much. I was half playing with my phone and half doing my Med Lab Sci report.

Other than that, met a few new friends in uni. They were all very friendly and nice to me. Haha, guess what I saw on David’s water bottle?

Yeh, it says “Poison, not to be taken” on his bottle. What a bum!

Anyway, that Friday after lecture me, Nicole and Mary walked around the campus stressing out because we rushed to print stuff out and hand in work. Had a quick 5 mins lunch before going to my Human Bio tute. Big mistake. Firstly, I had a lab so I had to see dead body again. It smelt really bad so I didn’t go too close to it. I did look tho. It wasn’t that yucky. Just some respect for the body. But the smell was really really bad. My fingers started to turn cold cause the room was freezing.

So after that, I met up with Ken and we took the bus to Andu’s place to get his car. His car was in repair so he had to drive this other car the repair place gave him. And it smelt bad too. Well, it have this really strong sweet smell that is very unpleasant. Felt a bit sick smelling that for the whole journey. Got a bit of headache and stuff. But Ken got his car back after so it was all good. I can still smell that on me tho. Bleh. We decided that since it’s Friday night, we should pull everyone out to do something.

We decided on movies @ Southlands. Hehehe. So, we got Andu, Shan and Hui to come. Watched ‘Mr Bean Holiday’. Was really funny!! Man, couldn’t stop laughing. But I also notice that Mr Bean turned older. Hmm yeah. Oh well, who doesn’t. But no one else in the world can be Mr Bean anymore. I miss those little funny Mr Bean episodes on TV. Used to watch them over and over again on TV. So after movies, we went to Hungry Jack’s to get food. Filled up my hungry little tummy then went home. Only slept at 12am.

Then woke up at 8 this morning cause going for shopping spree! Haha, I actually know I’m going to buy but I was - bleh got cut off by Ken cause he called. Haha. Yeh. Called up Nicole and confirm time. Meeting her 10am @ Cannington Train Station. Took the train to Cannington…

Camwhore xD

So, I got there at 9.57am like usual being an early person. I gave her a call and she said she was still at home. LOL! So I waited for her for about 20 mins until she turned up. That blur queen. Anyway, just chatting and laughing on the way to city.

Got there and shop around. Went to body shop and spent quite a bit. Bought a feet scrub for Mommy and a moisturer mask for myself. Hehe… yeh. Wanna look prettier now xD Actually, just wanna keep my skin healthier so asked for a few tips and the lady start promoting their stuff loads. Need to make sure I take care of my skin - to look beautiful. So I should get enough sleep. Hahaha! My hands still smell nice from all the products she applied on me. Lol.

Then we waited for Mary and Lisa to arrive. Waited for them outside Supre and they went into Supre and looked for us instead =.=|| All good. Found them. Then we went for our little shopping spree. Love those girls :) Everyone bought our dresses for the Asia Fresher.

Lunch @ KFC. Then went and walk around for things Mary want to buy. After that, me and Nicole went off cause we need to get something else and get home before it gets too late. Trip home alone was alright except I found out that my iPod was on for the whole time - AGAIN! How annoying. Happened lots of times already >.< But blame me for forgetting to lock it. Oh well. Mom picked me up from train station.

So my day was pretty fun. In a great mood. Thanks to Nicole, Mary and Lisa for the shopping spree! I enjoyed myself heaps. Love ya girls. Mwuahs!

Last but not least, I'm posting up a picture of my dog poster I got from Ken last week:

So cute huh!! Yup, I agree. My Hunnybear is cute too LOVE YA!

I am going to blog and then head off to bed soon cause I need sleep so badly right now I wished that I could be in bed for the next 24 hours…

…maybe

Yays! Friday tmr. Isn’t it exciting? For me anyway xD Am I going to tell you why? Hmmm… no cause I don’t know either. All I know is that I am currently really tired and dead and sleepy and cold and hungry and I’m missing you! I like this simply feeling of missing you. Cause then I will walk into my little lala land and everything will seem to pass by so fast. My ears and eyes will be completely blocked out. Cause all I hear to is nothing and I only see images on top of my head which I think it’s nice. Yup, that’s me daydreaming x)

It’s been a pretty hectic day…

Interesting thing is that I actually took a bus to Leanny’s house! Yup. That’s not something that I would do everyday. Especially taking public transport or walking to someone’s house. Cause I’m simply too lazy. But it was nice to see Leanny again. Had a nice little catch up session with her just chatting away - mostly about uni life etc.

Other than that, just a normal day at uni. Didn’t see Ken today but he called me so I can check on him? Hehe, yeh. It was nice. I miss him…

I have no idea what to say now… my brain is just invaded with missing him right now. Hahaha… I should head off to bed now. Early start tmr. Drained out and still holding on. Alright, jia you jia you jia you!

So so so so soooooo tired now!! Man, my eyes are just about to close soon but I have some work that I want to finish off before heading off to bed. Woah, it’s only Wednesday and I’m pretty much puffed out already. I guess there’s too many things going on and it is just impossible to go attend to everything! Anyway, I still all these things in my mind right now which I’m trying not to think so much about. At least I have organised things in a way that I get more time for everything.

YAYS! Easter break is coming up! Yes, been looking forward to that for so long. But I left everything at easter break, especially promises about meeting up with friends. I feel a bit bad cause I hope I get time so I really want to get a good rest for that 2 weeks and of course, give myself more time to revise through everything that has been covered ever since uni started. Yes, catching up time!

Well today, I wasn’t late. But I wasn’t early either. Got to uni just in time for HSC 180. Ended up just chatting to Zamri about anything and everything about my current life. That went on for about one and a half hour. Then I got off the class. Cruise around the uni aimlessly cause everyone is like… gone! I messaged 4 peoples and only got 1 reply! And who’s that? David. Yup. He was still in lecture though. Thank God he messaged me back or else I will continue to cruise around the uni for 2 hours! So I met up with him with the other Pharmacy peoples for lunch. Also get to see Siong there. So lunch = socialising time. Just talked about crap. Then we went off to the library cause those guys wanted to practise for their presentation. It was funny just watching them do so cause they’ll seem like they haven’t really done that or practised that before. Nevertheless, my time was spent quicker since I don’t have to hide myself in the corner of the library “pretending” I was doing some work when the fact is I have nothing to do!

Lab was 2pm so I went for that. I thought I was gonna be late cause of my short legs. Hence, slow walking. Well, there was still like many people waiting outside when I got there so it was fine. The lab was just full of crap cause I had no idea what was happening AND I was getting so dizzy and sleepy cause someone wore this really strong perfume. Couldn’t stand it and I can’t even think properly. Hated it.

After that, I power-walked to Human Bio lecture cause I was gonna be late! Thank God he was only just about to start as I walk in. Then blah blah blah. Human Bio put me to sleep. That lecturer was soooo boring! Yes. We got off late. So caught the bus late and train late. I missed the train! And it was getting dark. So scary. Luckily, Nicole was there. I waited for around 6 minutes by myself @ Cannington train station. Man, kinda scary. Dark and creepy and lots of like weird people there. Got back to Thornlie and parents picked me up. Haha, got home safe and in one piece (:

Until now, showered and just terribly tired. Still have the lab report to complete. I have to print out all the things for my assignment as well. Just wanted to talk to my Hunnybear… but he’s not online Miss him loads…

Anyway, just end here for now. I’ve got some pictures in my phone but I’m too lazy to upload. I hope blog is not getting too boring without them. But it’s okay. Break coming up should be great. Need sleeeeep!

Gah! I dislike it when this whole sense of security is not there anymore. Feeling kinda sad lah. Cause for the last few days, I have been unwell and there it is… sleeping all by myself at night, with no one to hug. Relying on the own body temperature and also the amount of clothings to survive throughout the whole night! Yup! That’s winter for you. Man… winter is just around the corner. It’s getting so damn close that it’s really scaring me. I’m so NOT prepared for winter. And everyone’s so busy doing something else that they’ll probably forgot that I rely on their hugs to survive (and one piece of paper just fell from the printer. Bleh!!!) And as I was saying, everyone’s getting so busy with their own things now that they wouldn’t really miss me. Which is of course, a sad thing. Perhaps, I should just accept this fact.
Aiya, I just don’t understand why there is this sudden loneliness I felt - I’m not trying to be emo here!! Maybe cause I’ve worked all day by myself and no one messaged me at all to say hi. Sigh. Where is everyone gone! I wonder. I was also thinking about the things that are due by the end of this week. So I was organising my thoughts and how I should schedule my time. And it effectively shows that thinking about stuff while working makes you confused! So soon enough, I will start forgetting things again which is why blogging makes me keep my mind relaxed - cause you get to say what you want to say - sometimes.

So I am slowly recovering from my unknown illness from a few days ago - which Andu had somehow concluded that I may just be pregnant and NO I’m not so don’t assume anything. I’m still losing part of appetite but it’s slowly coming back. Maybe I just got a bit too hungry after a while. It could be the “stress” I’m receiving as well cause as you all know, when I’m stressed out I can go crazy. I’m not sure. Don’t really want to know.

Today, I was thinking about all the things I want in my life while Mom drove me to work. I was kinda amazed by how demanding my life can be. Nevertheless, I’m not complaining because I’m sure that everyone wants to enjoy life. Well, I realised a few sides of me that can never see myself in.

One of the demands I want in life is happiness. It may seem to be something very simple but it’s definitely difficult to achieve. Simply because you can’t be happy all the time and well, there’s no one in the world that can complete your happiness, not even yourself. That’s why we try to satisfy ourselves in life. But really, I find that the point of me living for all these years was looking for happiness. At my young teenage years, I have been planning out the imaginary guy in my head which I believe I am bound to meet. I guess it seems pretty scary but I was influenced by TV and my other friends. Relationships, to me, should be taken very seriously - to a certain extent - and I’ve also told myself that I would only want to love one person in one lifetime. But of course, I realised that it is impossible. I tend to fall in love easily and quickly and I think that isn’t good for me. I guess that’s influence as well! I can’t exactly tell you if I’m happy right now cause some days I am and some days I’m not. But my realisation is 100% happiness is not possible in life like. Maybe 80% is enough to satisfy me
I was also thinking about my future career. I had this discussion about career in the car with my boss today. I firmly told her I would not start working full-time now because I want a degree. Well, partly to flash some good impressions in my resume and also partly to broaden my career pathways. I’ve never actually thought of stopping now and go work somewhere. Cause there are probably two outcomes. I will either have to hope that I can find something good enough for me to live off the rest of my life in comfort or go find a husband that I can depend on for the rest of my life… or end up working long hours in some factory. Haha! Ok, that’s a bit stereotypical. It doesn’t always happen this way. But then again, I want my own career. I don’t want to hope for something good without at least a good form of education (cause I might start feeling guilty) or depend on someone for the rest of my life. Seriously, unless my husband offers and is willing to let me depend on him for the rest of my life, or I would not force them to do so. Hahaha… sif I have nothing better to do! Yeah… it’s scary cause that is so not me from the person above, trying to look for happiness.

Dreams. What dreams do I have? I actually haven’t thought much about that. My little dream at the moment is to earn enough to support me with good clothings and food. One day, I want to be independent - as in know how to cook for myself and others and other things that I don’t know how to manage. My Mom always give me lectures about being more like a “girl”. Like learning how to cook and wash and everything. Fact is that I DO want to learn them and I’m not hopeless at them. It’s just that I’m still dependent right now especially at my parents. Eg them driving me around to places and cooking for me. One day, I wish that I would learn all that so I can drive myself and others around. Maybe I’m still not independent enough.

I can’t believe that I’m having all these thoughts!! How amazing. Too much influences. Maybe one day when I’ve accomplish all these, I would blog and refer back here. So the next little wish is to be able to keep on blogging. Hopefully this blog will not become pointless. These days, it’s hard to keep up with myself and my thoughts cause I’m keeping too much of them in my mind. TOO MUCH that I don’t even which one to write about and which one not to write about! Yeah, it’s confusing…

Anyway, this is getting too long-winded. Maybe you already know this little side of me mentioned above. But if you don’t, now you do!
Getting tired now. Finished my assignment and happy - for the moment! But I haven’t talked to someone today cause didn’t get a reply msg Anyway, I shall go take my rest and there is always a hope for tomorrow to be happy!

Just feeling a little bit down.

Just feeling a little bit unwell.

Just feeling a little bit… overwhelmed by a few things.

Other than that, yes, I’m holding on tight. That’s what life does to you. Set you all these deadlines for accomplishments. If you don’t get them done in time, disappointment is all you get. Mostly in yourself.

Doesn’t feel that well today. A bit of up and downs. At times, I just feel so sick that I wished there was someone there for me to lean on. At times, I just get so hyper that I can’t even control my jumping up and down. But what’s there to do? Ummm, I guess a bit of up and down doesn’t hurt. Just too much of an extreme.

It’s not like everything’s not perfect. Just feeling a little bit down - need someone to come and talk to me! But then again, I don’t know what they should do or say to me. Sighs, don’t even have appetite for dinner right now. Told Mom I would drink soup at least. But I haven’t done so. No, I don’t want to stuff up my tummy or neither am I going on a diet. I just can’t eat. Tummy feeling so weird. Couldn’t even sleep properly last night. Just hope my tummy will be back to normal soon.

So it’s a normal uni day. Except I stayed there for a longer time that I’m meant to. Had lab from 9 - 12 in the morning. It wasn’t a hard lab. Just a bit of theory and thinking. Didn’t feel particularly well then. But it’s okay! Super Reeny. I made it till the lab finished. Then I started to feel very hungry. So me, Nicole, Mary and Yan went and have lunch together. Ken came and see me but had to go off. So I went and look for him after I finished lunch. Fish burger made me so full and quite sick afterwards. In fact, I felt sick looking at people eating :S It’s quite bad.

Went back to lib to look for the girls. Found them with Phillip and William playing chess against each other. Then Ken went off to lecture, while I sat there watching them play chess until 1-ish. Got kinda tired after a few rounds so me, Nicole and Will went off. Will went home and we went to student central. Saw David there. Well, I was walking pass him and I didn’t even see him as I was blind :S He rang me up and asked me to look behind xD So went and meet up with him and his friends after me and Nicole was finished with student central.

Lib level 5 discussion room. Hahaha, tried to study a bit. Nothing much went in. So we all started talking. Nothing much. Then they went off to lecture so I was researching for HSC until Ken called. Met up with him to take 98. Saw Sarah there too But I got a bit too tired to say much stuff to her Then went home…

Came home all tired. Want to drop on my bed and nap but had to shower. After shower, I crawled on my bed and partially fell asleep. Then Cath told me about her story about how the desktop “popped”. So I got dragged out of bed to call up the HP people. So one of my newly bought desktop has fully broken down! Yup. At least I still have the laptop. Hehehe.

Aiya, tired and wished Human Bio stuff can get into my head. Ok, I won’t be lazy. I’ll go get notes to study now!

Hunnybearrrrrrrr I love you! Thanks for the poster. I haven’t really get to tell you that. Anyway, by the time you read this, I’ll probably be talking to you. So… hehe, you’ll talk there lah. Love ya!