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Today is the last day of 2006 - new year’s eve!

Actually I have no idea what to say. I do have lots in my head. But I haven’t done enough thinking to analyse them. I can’t make out to myself what had happened or how it all happened. Remembering last year today…

I was totally HOOKED on notpron cause I have seriously nothing better to do. I was stuck at home for most of the holidays and I was only allowed to go to the BBQ for new year’s day. My last entry for 2005 was short and not interesting. I really think my blogging skills has improved alot since last year. That may just be due to my more interesting life of 2006.

Last year today, I could still remember me. That feeling. That whole atmosphere. Like I’ve always said, I can never predict the future. Hence this is why I’m here now and I don’t even know how I got here. Everything just happened too fast for me to think. Last year, I think of my studies and partially having a relationship in mind that was haunting me - I thought it would be for life. But I guess since I’m still at my teenage years, I tend to switch my attention to something else faster.

I could just say that my first half of the year sucked to the core because I encounter lots of schoolwork and relationship problems. I try my best to get better at my schoolwork but I had basically no interest or motivation whatsoever to do so. Maybe because I’m a girl and is sensitive so my second half of the year was much better than I thought. I always thought that my year of 2006 will be pretty much like 2005.

2006 has strengthened me alot. I was determined to keep away from people as much as I could because people around me just made me feel bad about myself and even put me down alot. Plus, I start to feel that there’s no one that will really care about me except for my family. I turn my back to half of my friends and made less friends.

I have to really thank my Chinese school friend to turning my year of 2006 around. I’m not just talking about Ken here. I’m also talking about Andu, Shan, Hui, Rui, Joy, Labelle and Linda. After going to Chinese school, I realised how much I can be accepted and loved by my friends. I don’t experienced bitching behind backs and all those things that normally happens in school. I start to love my Chinese school friends more than my school friends then.

Ken being my other half of me has changed my life as well. A lot than I thought it would. I’ve learnt lots of things from you. So much about love and being more real in a relationship. I realised what is most important to me and how much I can receive love from someone. I guess I can’t assume that you give me the most, but I can feel the most from you. Thanks for always being there (:

I love you all. Thanks for everything… for making my 2006 the way it is. 2007 will be completely different but I hope I learn more things and stay happy. That’s all I hope for. Happiness.

It’s partially weekends now - cause work had finished for the week - and I’m already feeling bored! My schedule was so packed last weekend that now when I’m having such a quiet weekend, I’m feeling so uncomfortable. I’m started to think if I’m slowly rotting off inside. Lol.

Anyway, I’m totally out of ideas of what to do this weekend. So if anyone wants to do something, remember to count me in!

Don’t know why, I’m feeling so dead recently. Feel so much like I’m not socialise anymore, or rather I’m out of place everywhere. Just so… weird? I don’t know. I guess now I’m so busy with work that I don’t even have time for my friends anymore. I feel so bad because on one hand, I really want to work and get money to go out. But because I’m working so much now, I rarely have time to even spend my money. It’s pretty sad…

Oh and my hair is growing! I can feel it. Finally it’s growing. Can’t wait to let it be long so I can curl it back again. When my hair was short, I tried to curl it. And it looked very ‘auntie’. Or rather old-fashion la. Maybe it’s the way I curl it. Don’t know. But I shall wait till it grows back and my hair will revive. Wahahahahah!

Finally, I have ran out of things to say. That does not mean that my blogging skills is ‘deproving’. I guess my day wasn’t just as exciting as you think. Maybe if I start blogging once in like 3 days, then you’ll know that my schedule is full and definitely exciting.

So.. stay tuned!

Ever wonder why human has emotions? I guess I can’t give you an answer cause I don’t know why either. I don’t think we’ll ever know. But then again, without emotions, humans will not be humans anymore. Maybe the Earth will then have peace but it will be boring from the surface to the core.

Maybe many people think that happiness is rarely how they feel. I cannot imagine my own life as an emotional person because I will be always running out of happiness to feel. For me, I think I have more happiness in my life than any other emotions. I rarely run out of happiness because I have all these amazing people around me. Until today, my seventeen years of life, there have been many varies people that has been in my life. Whether they have only recently appeared, has always been there no matter what or they have already left my life but had provided me with happiness, I have to say that I’m very grateful. Most importantly, the people that has entered my life has made me the way I am. From a shy and quiet girl to now a loud and hyper girl. I love the way I am now cause I have become someone who can laugh things off and be funny at times.

Other times, I would experienced sadness. Who wouldn’t? It is those ups and downs in life that makes you strong and brave to move on from where you are. As for me, I have experienced countless sadness in life. But from all those family, relationship and friendship problems, I have learnt to simply let things go. Although I can’t tell you that I’m a 100% happy person as I am today, but I can certainly a more friendly person.

I’m sure everyone had felt disappointment many times in their lives. Don’t tell me you haven’t. You get disappointed on people around you, on yourself or on events that had happened. Without disappointment, there wouldn’t be courage to overcome your problems. If you are around me age, which I assume you must be, you must have at least in the last few years feel disappointed of your school results. No one is perfect. Therefore, there is disappointment. If you’re just simply too perfect to feel disappointed, you would be no one.

Jealousy is always a cause to a start of problems. Haven’t you ever been jealous over someone or something? I have. I get jealous all the time. Cause I’m such a sensitive person, you just never know when and what I would get jealous over. To me, jealousy may be a cause to problems, but sometimes if it is shown in the right way, it may just turned out to be a good thing after all.

I felt anger yesterday as you can see from my blog entry… and the swearing. All I could say is that being angry is not a bad thing. It might just let you have a willingness in you to make things happen. Well, in the right way of cause. I guess you can feel angry for many things. Any emotions could lead to anger… like jealousy or sadness. Just like the psychological cycle. Disappointment, Anger, Depression, Acceptance. When you encounter a problem, you will always feel disappointment, followed by anger and depression. Finally when you have a think of it, you would have to accept the way it is. There is nothing you could do. That is how I feel like now. I was disappointed with myself and I was angry (which explains the blog entry). So today I was depressed but finally I decided I should accept this fact and go take my test.

There are just way too many emotions for me to go through. I guess all the writing is making people feel bored now. So, I shall share this ‘Top 2 things’ with you all (:

Top 2 types your guy/girl must be:
1. without the love, nothing is gonna happen isn’t it?
2. caring and sweet - haha, the qualities possessed by Ken I should say.

top 2 places you would like to live with partner:
1. beach house?
2. somewhere comfortable and feels like we’re in our own lil world (:

top 2 places to date:
1. the evening beach xD
2. my house or yours *winks* LOL xD xD

top 2 things found in your wallet:
1. money
2. loads of junk

top 2 songs you can listen now again and again:
1. S.H.E
2. Jay Chou

top 2 books:
1. Series of unforunate events
2. Harry Potter

top 2 tv programs:
1. Bleh, don’t rly watch tv
2. -

top 2 places u’d want to visit 10 years
from now:
1. Paris
2. Korea

top 2 obsessions in ur life:
1. Ken xD
2. Myself?

top 2 favourite food:
1. Mommy’s cooking
2. Daddy’s cooking

top 2 favorite drinks:
1. Bubble Tea
2. Dihydrogen Monoxide xD

top 2 favourite website:
1. Alwayzonmymindd.blogspot.com xD xD
2. Erh… which one should I choose now…

top 2 things u want to do now:
1. Go and give Hunnybear a massage
2. Go take a lazy nap and have sweet sweet dreams

top 2 goals you want to accomplish:
1. Pass my competence test
2. Find a better job

top 2 favourite colours:
1. blue
2. white

top 2 best things you wanna buy:
1. new PJs
2. more nice clothes?

top 2 persons who usually calls you:
1. Ken
2. Mom

top 2 things that very important with you (except money):
1. Ken
2. family

top 2 brands that you wear most:
1. Erh… I don’t even know what brand I have..
2. -

top 2 malls that you think nice to visit:
1. no comments
2. no comments either

top 2 DVDs :
1. Step Up
2. Honey

I seriously cannot express how FREAKING ANGRY I am.

TEE results was out yesterday and I am fairly disappointed with myself. I have got the TER I need to get into the course I want. But guess what? I failed English and now I have to spend $90 to go take the competency test to get into Curtin. Isn’t that unfair? You know what is more unfair?

Check this out

Fair enough the other subjects but look at Chinese!!! I got 35% for my exam and they freaking scaled me down to 8%! What the hell is that!! I know I’m private candidate but don’t they take the exam marks anyway? AND why is my marks scaled down so damn badly!

Now look at English. What the hell! School assessment 55 and exam mark 52. Why the hell did I FAILED my English?!?! So disappointing. I could’ve saved my $90 and make my parents happy cause I can get into the course I want. But now, because of precisely 3.2%, I have to not only take the English competency test but I also might only be offered my very limited positions second round!

I can see anger raising in me. Well, I have to go take the test in 2 weeks’ time which cruelly reminds me of the TEE exam periods. I don’t even know if I will make it through even though people told me that the test is easy as hell. Inside me, I just have this sense of exam-ness back and I’m disliking it.

Oh well, many probably did good and I shall just stop complaining and go do that test. Congratulations to all who got the TER marks that you wanted and for those we doesn’t and actually DID well, stop complaining! Anyway, since the results are out, I shall stop talking about them.

On another note, I am happy because I will be heading to Curtin next year (hopefully if I pass that test). If I get into Medical Science, I will be happier. After much struggles, I have finally made it this far. Remembering me one year ago, still in Year 11 heading to Year 12. The girl who just finished Year 11 and is excited for Year 12. Yup that’s me. I have not forgotten that feeling until now. Cause I’m feeling that at the moment. Feeling excited once more for university life. I won’t know how that kind of life will be like but I’m sure looking forward to it. At least I know I will have Ken there for me to help me through university life, right Ken? (:

Last but not least… (sorry for the swearing) but if you never really talk to me on the net and you do now cause you want to know my TEE results to show off your very oh-so-beautiful results.. you know what?

In big bold letters,

FUCK OFF.

I don’t want to hear from you. Stop acting all like you care. I don’t care wtf is your problem but that piss me off. Go show off somewhere else.

Getting off the topic of TEE for the moment, I will blog about my busy schedule for the last long weekend/Christmas break.

Friday Night Dinner

I had work that day. It was busier than normal because it was Christmas period. They open until 9pm that day which I think was tiring but I got off work at 2pm.

After work, I headed home and then over to Ken’s house. His brother’s birthday was on Thursday so we went out for dinner on Friday night.

Restaurant at Leeming. Not too bad.

Saturday Shopping

You probably heard all about day out with Cath. All the bad luck we had. But we have a few memoriable moments…

Honeybear! Yup… make me think of Hunnybear. Yup, my special special Hunnybear (:

On the train…

Trying on dresses for Christmas eve party (: Haha, we are supermodels-to-be

Christmas Eve Party

Christmas eve party on Sunday. We were all dressed up for the occasion. Well, actually only me and Cath was dressed up but no one else was. But hey! An occasion to dress up for. How fun!

Me and Cath!

Overall ‘look’ (: Like my dress?

I love my hair! Hairdresser = Cath (:

Even though we didn’t do much but it was a fun night hanging out with friends. We stayed in and played Twister, eat, joke around and even went out for a walk and gave the mossies a big feast.

And Andu trying to be a faceless Santa…

Laughters and tears. Whatever it is, it’s near to Christmas. Counting down to Christmas was the most interesting bit cause we get to open up presents. LOL. But after that, I had to be sent home.

Monday’s BBQ @ Ken’s Mom’s Friend’s House

I woke up pretty late that morning at around 9.45am. I almost overslept. But I remembered Ken telling me to be ready by 11am cause that’s the time he will pick me up from my house.

I didn’t make much effort to dress up cause too lazy. Just went in a red tank top and black shorts - hot day!

We had lunch at Ken’s mom’s friend’s house. People there was nice cause I didn’t feel left out when normally I would be quiet and in the corner during those kind of occasions.

I also lost the first battleship board game to Ken but won the Twister game with the kids.

Although I think the boys were funny but I reckon the cat is funnier. Lol.

It’s good to be kids.

Consider having one…

LOL joking!

Played with the cat (:

That’s the cat trying to steal my camera.

Maybe it’s better to be a pet…

Consider having one…

No, I’m not joking this time. Lol.

BBQ @ Millpoint

Celebrating Leanny’s birthday and being back to Perth from Singapore, she organised a BBQ at Millpoint.

It was once again a really hot day… so I was in my blue top and black shorts.

That’s Millpoint for you.

Let’s welcome our chef, Ken! *applause* Lol, you can cook for me now Hunny (:

Lol. Leanny has to look so serious even though it’s only cooking…
(Leanny left, Janice right)

Then comes Jenny the umbrella chef! LOL, she look so cute.

After BBQing and eating, they played waterbombs. During that process, lots of swear words appeared. I didn’t join in the waterbomb though. Didn’t want to wet Ken’s car afterwards.

It was nice to see my school friends again. It was different this time cause I chose to be there. Maybe I wasn’t there for a long time cause of the hot weather but at least I know I was happy to see them. But I missed other friends. Oh well, I’m sure I will see them again. Maybe I should go to more gatherings…

At the end of the day, I was all sunburnt.

Bleh.

It was all good cause this Christmas, I get it spend it with Ken. Maybe I didn’t spend it too much with my family but at least I get to do what I like rather than be forced to go to some dinners that I don’t want to be invited to. Some parties/dinners are too fake for me. Not my thing.

End of high school = Start of freedom

I’m loving it (:

I suppose I’m not Christian but..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!