Heya~
Have no clue what to write today. Feeling a bit sick. Couldn’t sleep last night again. Tossed and turned in bed, trying to find a comfy position. But didn’t work. Not sure how I fell asleep though. Need to go find job again. Hear from Yuri and Louise that this shop in caro is looking for someone to apply in. Might go and apply. Lol, depending when I go to caro? Dunno.
Have no plans for this week. Today is Wednesday. Tomorrow Thursday. Well, gonna ask if I’m allowed out on Friday or not I guess. Hopefully yes? Cause I don’t want to be all alone at home like the last few days. Being alone at home can be quite peaceful sometimes but it’s kinda quiet. So don’t really like it. However, I haven’t got anything planned for this week yet. Trying to think of some things to do.
Yesterday, was home alone as well. And yer, if you wanna know about my day yesterday, go to my bebo blog and see cause I don’t want to repeat it. Anyway, Yuri and Louise came to visit yesterday. Didn’t expect that. I heard the doorbell and went to get it. I was kinda puzzled cause my Mom didn’t tell me that someone’s visiting our house. Then I opened the door and there they are. I was so … shocked? Didn’t know they were visiting me. So they came in and we just sat in our room and talk.
So yer. Today is just normal as well. Sleep until 9-ish then wake up. That’s all? Yer.
Hi to the people reading this. I’m feeling weird from being uncomfortable last night. Well, I was bored. I feel bored so suddenly. And I could not sleep. So I msged Louise and Francess. Then Francess called me. So I chat with him for a while. Well… he was talking about him running away from his mom at the moment because she wants him to go to England and stop playing around in Malaysia. Then suddenly, he said to me that I should find a bf so whenever I get bored there’s someone there that can accompany me and make me laugh and smile. You know what I replied him? I said I don’t need one. He said that in every girl’s heart, there must be at least 2-4 guys that would fit into the to-be-bf catagory. And I was like thinking… hmmm, like who?! But I stopped thinking. After we hang up, he msged me back and told me that he want me to find a bf is because he still love me and that he wished I could be happier. He gave me his blessings. That was really sweet. But the thing is I’m really not in a mood for this. Finding a bf is not hard. But finding a bf who suits you character and personality etc is very hard. Some people tell me that in this world, a girl is only meant for a guy. And when the time comes, they will meet. But imagine, in such a big big world… where is the love? Haha, in Africa? Lol. And remembering someone else told me that you might be with a guy, but there might be another guy in the other side of the world who you’ll love a million times more than you love your guy now. That’s scary huh? Well, I don’t believe in looking for a guy. But I do believe in letting fate make us find each other. But who am I meant to be? I’m really not sure. The future seemed so clueless to me at the moment. But isn’t that what everyone feels? Even for a 60-year-old lady, life is clueless ahead of her too.
Today. So peaceful in my house without anyone around me. So alone. But I like this peacefulness sometimes. Sometimes I don’t. But today seems weird. Just a normal day. But a weird day. Like the day is going to be so long! I’m not sure why? Anyway, I drew a picture today. Here it is ;
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Yer. I mixed a few colours to do the hair and the dress. It looks pretty. But not on the picture because the colours does not stand out. So yer. But I still like it!
So Leanny’s birthday party is today. The wet weather is making me sleepy. Just hope it won’t be too cold tonight. Just hope. Can’t be stuffed bringing a jacket with me. Anyway, I’m feeling a little sick today. Need to find something to eat now. Lols, a little hungry. Hmmm. Feeling a bit bored at the moment too. But I’ll stop here cause there’s nothing much to write.
Shopping today! Haha… yups. Again. BUT today with my family. Family day =D Well, but the good thing is that I didn’t spend any money today. My sister bought me a pink waistband. I am not obsess with pink, but I’ve got too many pink tops, I need a pink waistband to put them together? Erhs, yer. Good enough excuse =\ And bought a jeans. But not so demin coloured. Pretty different from the colours I would normally buy. But it’s really nice. It’s $40 on sale. Mom bought it for me as christmas present? Ummm, still far away =\ But she said I could buy anything. She wanted to buy me this Fila top as first for $45. But I told her it was too expensive. I would rather spend it on something else. But mind you, the fila top is pretty nice. I don’t think I would want to wear it. Too much pressure. I’ll be preventing myself from making it dirty or something like that. Haha, too much stress.
Anyway… I haven’t bought a new jeans this year, apart from the one I bought in Singapore at Jan. So yer. It’s good enough? I think I’ve bought too many things this month. Spent around $150++. But that’s good enough, considering that I do not have a job at the moment. So yer!
Hmm, so it’s Leanny’s birthday tomorrow. Yups. Her party’s on. Hmmm.. apart from tomorrow, dunno when I’ll be out. Wanna go that carnival in Saturday? But I dunno if I’m allowed. Just wanna relax for the holidays. Dunno what next. Dunno what the future awaits for me! Today, I’ve got the most calls and sms. I replied Francess in the morning for smsing me last night. And sms Leanny for her address etc. Then Leanny called. After a while, Francess called. Then Louise called. Then Yuri called. Lol. So many people? I don’t normally get that much calls from like different people. Anyway, so yer. Tomorrow I’m going to Leanny’s thing. Can’t wait. But before I go, I have to do some housework. xP So can’t be stuffed. But I’m the housekeeper! Lols. For tomorrow?
So yer… that’s all for today. So tired to write today. Need a good rest tonight, just hope I can sleep tonight. Last night, I watched Tv till 2am. And I woke up at 8am this morning. Haha. Can you imagine? Well, I’m not tired at all. Haha. Pray that I can sleep tonight (:
Yays~~ Haha… I might get a job! My first job ever. Thanks to my friend. He’s gonna help me ask at his workplace cause they need somone for the christmas. It’s a resturant in Warwick. Applying as waitress. Well. It’s at Warwick! So far! But he said I could scab lifts from him or his friend. That’s cool.
Anyway, I’ve done housework today. Yup. And now I have a possibility of getting a job. So it’s cool. ^_^
So… my holidays. Finally there’s something I can do. Hmmm… what about the sandwich bar thing? I wonder if it’s still gonna work? I dunno. But if it opens, I’ll work there next year. Yups. And I’ll save up to go Singapore next year as well. That’s cool. Hopefully, my studies next year will be better. Gonna concentrate and do better. Work faster. Think carefully. Lol. Well, just hope I pass everything including Physics and Geography. Well, and hope that I pass every subject this year too!
Well, stop here today. Hmmm… I’ll write again.
Wow, haven’t update in here for like a few days. I write everything in my bebo blog too. Dunno which one to update sometimes. But today, I’ll do it in here.
Anyway, I’m proud to announce that exams are finally OVER! Hehehe. And today… is Wednesday! Well, I’m all dolled up and prepared, getting ready to go out shopping later with Leanny. And yer! My independence starts here! Hehe.
So what have everyone been up to? Not much? Or like heaps? Well, I know that Atiah has already started working… so good for her. I need to find a job too. Lol. If I can get one. Fuzzy’s going back to Singapore for army in 2 weeks. So… yer, he’s spending time with Trishy. I guess that’s a bit like… memories of me and Fredric. The 2 weeks spending time together. It’s the happiest but the saddest at the same time. Because we are so happy together, but in our mind we know that it’s not going to last that long. Even now, I still think back to the memories. Even after he said he still loves me. Dunno what I still do to keep me calm. Sometimes, I feel really scared. Dunno what for. But I just am. Maybe because I’m scared of the distance. Or any change of heart. Think to myself. Will this really have “happily ever after”? Just wishing it could.
Now 3 different guys told me they like me. 2 of them are my ex’s but I only still love one of them. And the other one… he told me a long time ago, and the other day, he msged me and tell me that he’s still very fond of me. But I just changed the topic. I know that it’s not good for not telling them to stop thinking. I feel guilty letting them just have this thoughts. But I dun want to hurt anyone’s feelings. It’s hard to ask someone out, BUT it’s harder to reject someone ok. So I guess I just need to hide and let them stop thinking about me. And if I want to, I will.
So yer, this is my story so far. Writing in my blog for such a long period of time now. My never ending story goes on and goes. Wonder how long this is going to keep. How long this is going to last. For how long I will continuing writing my story to everyone. And yer. For now, I’ll stop here. But I promise, it will be continued. (:
Take care!
