A dream
You drown yourself in pain
Pleading for a drop of rain
Wake up, this foolish thoughts
A gust of tears needed to be fought
Treat it all as a dream you’ve made
live your life without me, you said
Shattered minds, broken wings
Memories fortified still lingering
Now all the flowers gone by time
To all the autumn sweet break rhyme
Dreams that is real or hard to believe?
Keen to understand the meaning to live
To fight the sorrow, the pain, the cold
The star to land on, dream to hold
To hold, to fight, to end this pain
To plead, to wish for a drop of rain
Don’t feel unhappy anymore. For everyone out there who is reading my blog. There’s thing in life that I felt unhappy about a few days back. But now I’m fine. I want to dedicate this poem to everyone I love. My friends, my family. Fight your sorrow and cold. Be happy. Smile always.
feeling weird + crazy
listening to pussycat dolls * don’t cha
Aww.. isn’t that sweet? Thanks Andy!
Anyway… hmm. Sad… So many things happening. Hmmm. Wished that some people would stop all this. All my sympathy has already turned to anger at the moment. Day and night, I really remembered that situation. I was so keen to talk back and break that threatening words from her to Louise. But everything happened to fast for me to do so.
Now I’m feeling really angry by her stupid behaviours. She says she wants to kill me. Wants to stab me. Wants me to be dead. Really… what is the point? Scaring me? I don’t feel scared at all. But for this particular case, I would rather try and avoid all this situations that I would bring myself into. Why would I do that anyway? What is benefiting me into bringing all this to myself?
Sad… sad. Really. That night. There was so many tissues in my room. All used up. I felt so useless. Really. James kor called me. Cuz I asked him to. Cuz I needed someone to talk to me at that time. But I still useless. Kept crying. He kept asking me to be strong. And I promised him I won’t cry again. Thanks kor, for being there for me!
Ok… dunno what else to say anyway. Now, everything’s so… weird. But thanks for all my friends being there for me. Thank you everyone. I really appreicate it. I know u all care. =)
feeling annoyed + hungry
listening to li sheng jie * shou fang kai
What is wrong with everyone? My gosh…
My brain is really exploding. I know is her. That said all these stuff to me. And I really wished I wouldn’t care about her words. Well, I’m not. I dun care if she called me a hoe or a bitch or whatever. But I wonder why she never thinks about what she does.
I wanna say ; I feel sorry for her.
Well. Really. I wouldn’t want her life. I’ll be so stuffed. I wouldn’t want to put myself in such situations anyway. But somehow, some people can’t choose their own personalities. And what can I do? She doesn’t accepts those helps anyway. And no one would go near her. Cuz of her…
Why is this world so unfair? To some people? Dunno.
Feeling a bit hopeless. Dunno how I can face her tomorrow without feeling… sad?
Oh well. Feel like writing a poem. Haha… Let’s see what I can make up.
Darkness
Lost in sense to be alive
Numb, no feelings, stabbed by knife
The emptiness between flaws
Life filled with rules and laws
Be alive, waking up sinned
Fighting back light- dimmed
Sick of every crashed days
Living through black rays
Watched those coloured eyes
Seen by black and white
Shades of sunlight you found inside
Darkness in you seemed to hide
Right or wrongs don’t know the truth
Summoned to be the last that proves
More worries simmering signs
What world allows crossing the lines?
Cuminates with the song of cherish
Lying dead a life for perish
A word of advice nothing given
Meant to hurt but you never listen
feeling tired + retarded + funny
listening to britney spears * i’m not a girl, not yet a woman
Recently, kept feel like writing songs. Dunno why. Many things in my mind. Today suddenly I felt, I should exceed myself from the outside world. Hmmm. Suddenly feel like the world is crashing down. Do I look sad? Cuz… yer. I don’t, I think. Just feeling a bit weird.
Today… is so usual. So predictable. So unexciting. Learning how to face the world with more excitment. Where is all my feelings gone?
Gone with the breeze. Where can I find it back?
feeling normal + happy + sastisfied
listening to 50 cent * candy shop
wah, feels like I have not updated for quite a while. Cuz I have been busy. Can’t remember when I updated… a few days ago. Yer. Feels like a year ago. Forgot how to blog. LOL.
Can’t be stuffed coming on the net for like a while… or just come in to do some stuff.
Last night, chat with James kor till 3am. From 11.30++pm I think. Lolx. Talk about lots of things… and yer. Nice chatting. Chat till didn’t want to go to sleep. Lol. But finally hang up. Then, tried to sleep. But I don’t seem to be able to sleep for quite a while. But finally fall asleep. Somehow. Yups.
Next morning wok eup at 7.15am. OMG. I was so knocked out. I was so tired! But can’t help it. HAD to wake up. Force myself to wake up. Felt a bit regret for talking for so long last night. But after a while… guess what? I was hyper! Weird. A girl that only has 4 hours sleep could jump around so lively. Arhh… I don’t look like I’ve slept for 4 hours last night anyways.
Didn’t do much today. Did my talk. Volunteered to go first. Haha, felt proud of myself for doing so. Then I tried to read without being so nervous. But I think I’ve shown part of my nerves anyway. So yer… I think I did pretty good. Amongst all the talks I’ve done this year, this has been the best one.
I’m lazy to write… lolx. My day is quite boring. Yer…
So yes! I want chocolate!!!
xP