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*Sigh* Feel so sad… I dunno what’s wrong with me… have been like that ever since I came home today. Never felt like this before. No one ever gave me this feeling of confusion and unsercure before. Why didn’t I reject the way he was treating me… and… I dun understand. I dunno how I can reject without hurting his feelings… feel so bad. Like cheating a person’s feelings, but I really want to be honest. Should I tell him or not?

Today I went to watch Mr and Mrs Hitch. But I couldn’t concentrate. Cuz I was quite slpy. But I kept having a person in my mind… and that really makes me feel very uncomfortable. I’m starting to suspect if I still like him. Cuz the feeling he gave me is different. And that feeling is more sercured and safe. Today, I just felt so dangerous, like I’m going to lose myself any minute. I really dunno what to say.

I’m still thinking… should I tell or not?

Should I…?

I’m so scared. But I feel very sad when I think about it again. Issit my illusion? Becuz I still miss him alot? I remember that I kept telling myself to forget him completely. But now I find myself even more unable to control myself mising him. Even thought it has been such a lot time.

He still lays in my head… and I dunno if I would give up my heart to anyone again, esp after today…

-s a d-