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Things pass by so quickly that sometimes you don’t even have time to look back. Is it so? Maybe, maybe not. I dunno why, I have a feeling in me all the time. It’s so difficult to explain. Today, I feel like letting everything go. And believe. Believe in fate and destiny. I used to believe that there wouldn’t be any miracles if you won’t make it yourself.

Fate is on our very own hands. But I really can’t understand why people say that. I don’t even know why I believed in it. Now, I don’t believe in it anymore. Somehow, I’ve learnt. Today, it is story time. I’ll tell you a fairytale story that ends with a happy ending.

I was told this story by my god brother’s girlfriend. And this is a real story that happens to her uncle and auntie…

They were together. A couple. A perfect couple. But there was one thing that has broken their dream to be together. He has to go to Japan. For studies. And she has to remain in Malaysia. They were young. Perhaps people may think that they dunno what true love is. But maybe they did, in their hearts. They were forced to break up.

But, they didn’t forget each other. Their very first love. That is memoriable and unforgotten. He had another girlfriend in Japan after a while. So did she. She had another boyfriend. His relationships in Japan didn’t last at all. After all, he has been true. He still find his right one. She was the same. She didn’t find her right one.

A few years later, he came back to Malaysia. They were older then. And more matured. They met up. And fall back straight in love again. And got married after a few years…

A happy ending.

Sometimes, miracles do happen. Even though it rarely does. But maybe only because a relationship has been through obstacles, it will be true and strong. Choosing to leave, to give up. Was disappointing… why can’t a person hang on to something they wanted to cherish? I wanted to cherish. But I can’t now. Because I dunno how.

Loving him is hard. I can’t. Because I have no right. He is now my friend. The one I still love. Even though, I still believe in the story. I already have thought. I shall leave everything to fate. It’s no point feeling sad now. There’s no turning back. Not now. Maybe not ever. But let it be the memories that reach a turning point in our hearts. No matter what, I’ll still be the one behind you. Giving you all my support and courage. Just like before.

Still miss you very much. But you made this route no turning back for me…

([l i s t e n] Liang Jing Ru & Ping Guan - Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni ]`)
([f e e l] Pretty normal. A bit tired. ]`)
([m i s s] Deep inside. It’s you. ]`)

Hmmm. I’m lazy today. Yup, very lazy. xP Didn’t do much today. Woke up late this morning, cuz… it’s weekend! Haha, yer. It’s Sunday. I’m allowed to okay. =D Well, I slept late last night. Was on the net until 11.30pm. Yer.

I woke up at about 11am this morning. Lolx. Yer, sleepyhead. Lazy and slack. Woke up and did all the brushing, washing up etc. Then ate breakfast-lunch. Then wash clothes. Hang them up. Then bathe Leo. After that, I was pretty free. Dunno why it happen, but I was in my room with my sisters and we were talking and chatting.

Then I was telling her I saw this “ballerina” shoes yesterday that I wanted to buy so badly. Hehe. Then we were looking through magazines and telling each other what we wanted for our birthdays. Reading a whole pack of magazines… then I did my laboratory write ups. Got bored. Hehe. Then went outside. My mommy and daddy came home from buying some things. Then she asked me to help her grill some dried tofu and “you tiao” to make rojak. So I did it… and it didn’t turn out good, cuz I over cooked some. Hehe. But everyone enjoyed eating it. Then I tried on my hair piece. It was long. Lols, suddenly I have such long hair. But. I didn’t like it. Cuz it kept going everywhere and I have to comb it everytime to make it tidy. I also have problem trying to figure out how to control it while dancing. I’ll have to learn that one…. then I asked my Mom to help my cut my finge cuz it’s getting long. After cutting, I watched Happy Sunday. Then went and shower… cmae out and watch F.I.R new album’s concert on Tv. Then came online.

That’s all. My day. Haha. Dull and boring. Wishing for something different. But. Dunno what. Havent been singing for a long time now…. havent written songs either… maybe too busy for schoolwork. Also dunno. Well, thinking of gathering a band. But can’t get anyone. Haha. Maybe wait till holidays before I did that… but I dunno. It’s hard. Anyone wanna join?! Haha, any one who can play an instrument. =] Ok, leave it to fate. I think everything that is meant to be. I guess I shouldn’t think too much. If I really had the chance, I could gather a band. Let’s just wait and see. For now, studies comes first. I hate saying that, but it’s true. Cuz I dun like my studies to come first. I dun like to think abotu my studies first all the time. It really bores me. I’ve seen many people give up school… hmm, I dunno if I’ll still be studying in thornlie next year. Hopefully, I can make it. And make my way to university. But I still havent made up my mind what I want to study yet. I want to study something I’m interested in. Maybe I could take up meteorology. Studying stars and planet. Could be fun. But I require Physics. And honestly, I hate Physics. I dont have confidence in getting good marks for Physics.

Exams are coming soon. Wish me luck everyone!! I wish all my friends good luck too.

=Listening // Tension - Wo Men De Gu Shi=
=Feeling // Very very very very very very very tired=
=Missing // one and only him=

What a day!! So tired! *yawns* hahas. Today went shopping with Yuri. I spent $100. Which I wasn’t suppose to. XP You should see my mommy’s face when I told her that. She didn’t scold me but she was a bit… “Omg, my spoiled brat…” Hehehes.

This is my day today ;;

Woke up at 9++ but lay in bed cuz I was lazy. Thinking what to buy today. Well, thinking of buying hair piece for dance. And other things… hmm… yer. Then… just slack around and then finally got up and my Mom asked me to activate my sister’s hp. My sis bought new phone yesterday. Quite nice, very small though. After that, I go and brush my teeth etc. Then ate breakfast. Got changed. Hehes. Wore that pink top with [cutie] written at the collar. Yer, felt very pinky today. And then wore my jeans. Then thinking what bag to mix with. Lolx. Then took the purple and pink stripy handbag. And my white jacket. A bit chilly today. Then my shoes. Then off I went…

Got to Caro. Can’t remember which was the first shop we went to…. oh wait! Yer, we went to Rebel Sports. And Yuri was looking at some jackets. They were expensive… like $50 - $90. I was looking at a lot of them, but I was intending of buying any. So I just gave Yuri some suggestions. We had lots of time so we continue shopping. She was considering if she wanted to buy the jacket. Then off we went… we went to JayJay’s. I was looking at jackets. There was many people there, cuz there was a sale. I saw a pink jacket that is very nice, and I wanted to buy it. Then saw a pink cardigan. Fall in love with both of them. Haha!! Then I saw the tag says that each cost $15, buy 2 get the 3rd one free. So I picked another jacket that is blueish - greenish colour. Bought 3 of them for $30. Hmm, not too bad huh. Haha. Yer, I’ve already decided it was my shopping day. Then… we went into many other shops. Our main target was to go to Enhance Fashion to get the hair piece though. We were walking around…. and went to get credit for my hp. Then… went into Kali and Waves. But didnt see anything I wanted to buy. Cuz very expensive. Then went into Jeans West. I saw a white top that was nice!! Haha, so did Yuri. They are both white. And guess what? They are the same top. Hehehehehe… So we ended up trying on the same top. And both liked it. And, we both ended up buying it too. Lols. For $25. Haha. After that, I said I wanted to buy hip band, so we went to Headgirl to buy it. We went to Valley girl as well. Yuri wanted to buy a pink cardigan there, but she changed her mind. After buying my hip band, we went to get our hair piece finally. Haha. They found my hair colour, but not Yuri’s. They will have to order hers. So we both paid for ours. And I ended up having like… 4 paper bags to carry. -_-” and Yuri only has like 1…

After that, we decided that we are hungry so, we went to KFC for lunch. Sat there, eating and talking. I was so full… and tired from carrying so much. Haha. But I’ve already spent most of money by that time already… After eating, we continued shopping.

We went to Myer cuz Yuri wanted to buy socks. She tried on this green jumper that I thought was nice. Then she was like “Ok, let me check that price..” It was $100! Hehe. Ok, put that back. And be gentle! Then we went upstairs. I’ve never been upstairs. In fact, I’ve only been to Myer once. Haha, I saw something that I wanted to buy, but didnt cuz I have no money. It was a “ballerina” shoes. Well, that’s what I call it. Cuz it’s pink and white and it’s cover a bit in the front and it’s not high heels at all. It’s flat. Yup, I tried it on, and fits me perfectly. And It’s would look nice for wearing jeans or just below knee skirts. Yup. Very cute. But can’t buy… =( Hehe, so I was telling Yuri… “Okay, you can buy that for me for my birthday ok?” Lols. But it was only a joke. Anyways, we went upstairs. We were talking about something in front of the shelves full of hair straighters. But we didn’t realise. Then a lady came and serve us. She asked if we needed any help. And we said we are fine. But she kept talking… Lol, introducing the hair straighters… haha. She asked if I was buying it, I said no. She said I don’t need it, cuz my hair is already straight. She asked what kind of straighter I used. I said I had never straighten my hair. It’s natural straight… So she started introducing them to Yuri. I didn’t think Yuri wanted to to buy them… so I was asking all this random questions. Making her talk and talk… but in the end, she ended up buying them. Haha… then the lady said that Yuri can borrow my straighter if she buys the curler anyway. Haha… then I said I don’t have one…. I don’t need one. Lols.

After buying them, we went and continue shopping. Went to Cotton On, Yuri bought a tank top. Went to West Co, West Jeans and Target. Didn’t actually ended up buying anything much. Then finally went back to Rebel Sports and she bought a pink jacket. Which was $65. I thought it was a bit expensive. I probably can’t afford it. Haha. But by then I am broke already. Then.. went home. Keep my stuff. Then went for a shower… come online. Tired! Yup.

Good exercise today. Should go shopping more often. But hehe, my money will be gone by then. =/ Hehe. I think I’m broke already. No money left. Ok… stop here for now. Cant type anymore.

Take care peoples!!

listening - Jay Chou - Qian Tian
feeling - normal.
missing - always the one…

Havent blog for a few days… yup. My computer problem again. Ever since I’ve changed to broadband, there’s many many problems. Something wron with me again today. Really, I had enough of this stress already. I knew that I failed my EPW today. I sure did. And my computer is having virus… the trojan horse one. I had an injection for that filling in my teeth at the dentist too.

Exams coming soon… feeling stress. Dunno how to cope. Today, I talked to Trishy. Well, she said she’s going to city tmr with Fuzzy, for their anniversary. I said I was going out shopping too. Yer, getting my hair piece tomorrow. Cost $30!! Expensive… but wad can I do. 2 more weeks, we’ll have Kalamunda. Dunno why I’m working so hard for everything for. No point.

Yer,bakc to talking to Trishy… then I dunno where it came from, but I just suddenly said, “I miss Fredric…” I was daydreaming. Then Trishy said… “Aww.. reeny, dun worry…” I’m not worrying. Just feeling insercure. Dunno how I’m like now. Missing him more and more these days. Cant describe bahx. I cant control my thoughts esp recently when there’s so many stress and ppl giving me hard times. My marks going up and down, so is my mood. Then Trishy asked if I was going to Singapore. Problem is I dunno. I dun wan to. Not now. Then she said, no matter what I’ll have to go with her end of Year 12. Means, the end of next year. And I can’t believe that I actually promised her. Cant escape it now….

Anyway, got many homework during this weekend. Have to study harder now. Got timetable for my exams… and I dun have to go to school on that Tuesday of exam week. Aiyo… I’m confused now. Tomorrow going shopping. I got $80. Cuz I get $200 for studying. And I gave $100 to my sister to buy hp. And $20, $10 for each of my sis. Well, sharing is caring. Haha. No, my mom asked me to do that. But I didnt whined. Oh well, I’m a generous person.

Rose day is coming. Dunno what that means to people. But we get to buy a rose for $2. You can give to someone with a message in school. Didnt think of buying any. Cuz, I’m not rich. Tomorrow will have to spend money on many things…

Getting more and more inconfident with myself… but. till now I still kept the ring and I happen to look at it today. Daydreaming again. I was telling myself, believing that he would come for me… dunno. In my mind, I kept thinking, is it? Or is he not? Confident or not confident. Decide!!

listen ; guang liang - tong hua.
feel ; kinda sad…
want ; nothing but rest.

Firstly, wanna say… hope get well soon. Take care of yourself. =] Secondly. I had a nightmare this morning. No, correction. It wasn’t a nightmare. It was REAL. Well this is the story;;

I was awoken in the morning at around 6am by the pouring rain outside. It sounded really strong. The wind was blowing harder and harder each time, which makes it uncomfortable and difficult to sleep. But I tried to sleep anyway, because I knew I had school and I’ll end up feeling sleepy and dozed off in class. And I have a Physics test too. So I ignored the rain outside… and it rained heavier and harder each second, until I felt that it sounded like it’s hailing. Then I was close to being asleep.

Just a few seconds later, I heard a loud bang. It sounded like it came from right above my head. I slept near the window and my windows are closed cuz it’s raining and cold. But yer, my window is made of glass. I was a bit confused after hearing the loud bang. It sorta scared me a bit. Soon after I heard my dog Leo barking. I was a bit scared, cuz I thought maybe somehting has landed and hit the glassdoor where Leo is sleeping. My mom came running out after a while, then my sisters. After that… I peeped out of the window behind my curtains. And Found something has landed right on top on my window. So I ran out of the door and told my Mom to come and have a look.

She was shocked to see that. We tried to turn on the lights… but there wasn’t any light. There was only the darkness of the early morning. We figured that there was a power failure, but something was terribly wrong. I didn’t think that we would have a hail so big that it would hit our fence down. I thought I was the only unlucky one. But no. I checked the clock and it’s 6.30am. We stayed awake, feeling confused. When the Sun came up slightly, I realised what was happening. All the other fences came down as well. The back and the side revealing my neighbour’s backyard. We stayed awake for the rest of the morning. I was a bit tired and wanted to go back to sleep for the last 30 minutes before getting ready for school.

But I just lay in bed, hugging bubbles. I was… afraid… I could have been injured if the fence broke my window. If it did, I would have been cut or something. But I was glad I didn’t. At that time, laying in bed. I curled up tightly… trying to feel warm… cuz I’m cold… Bubbles was the only one there… for me. I was then thinking of him. Wishing he was here to hug me… I just felt so weak suddenly. Finally understood why I cried that day when he let go. Because, I was scared he wasn’t by my side. Not mentally… anymore. Because he has no excuse to do so. To him, all we can ever be now is friends. And friends don’t give more than they do. They just do their part as friends…

I didn’t go to school. Not because of the fear. My mom got me to stay at home and look after the house just for today. I was thinking… what about school? What about my Physics test? What about this? What about that? Then I realised, I don’t give a damn anymore. I was thinking… what if I was injured…. would I still care? Care about my results in school? Or what I want to be for the rest of my life?

Well, I guess that is call Cherish.