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After h o u r s of sleep, I’m still feeling very tired. I wonder why. Maybe it’s just me and this own exam crap. First time in my life I’m studying so full on. But anyways, I was flicking through a big plastic storage box the other day, and surprisingly, I found some things. About me. About my past. This is one of the p o e m I write when I was in Year 9. Which is 2 years ago. This is actually for an assesstment. But why did I write that? I couldn’t r e m e m b e r my purpose for writing this…
The Nature of Life
Peacefully and gently,
The big round golden ball
Ran across the deep blue sea.
The brown drowsy man,
Swept towards the greenish stick.
Aching to find its golden cresent.
With the light sound blowing in my ears,
Looking up, forgetting my fears.
Time went fast as clouds float past,
Thinking about how long they will last.
Letting tears roll down my cheek
Speaking in languages that sound so Greek.
The peace and quiet made up my mind,
But I bound to leave or be left behind.
I tried and tried to forget this day,
Trying and trying I ran away.
I dunno why, but this definitely sounded very very s a d to me. I wonder what was in my mind then. The teacher said that it’s a good poem. But… at the bottom of the poem, I wrote a little note. Saying that this poem is about the nature of life and thinking how long nature will last. And, hoping that people would make changes in their life towards the nature and not letting it die out like that. The nature filled is full of wonderful things and as descibed in the poem. Yups. That’s what I wrote. Lols. I actually find that it makes s e n s e after reading this for the third time for the last few days.
This is another poem. Based on l o v e. I forgot when I wrote that, and why or who I was writing that to. But here it is…
Forgotten
You’ve broke my heart,
Shattered it into pieces.
Falling deep for you,
I knew I shouldn’t have been.
Don’t turn away,
like you’ve never known me.
Don’t leave me out,
like you’ve never met me.
You never did
Heard my cries at all.
Loving you now?
Between us there’s a wall.
Time told me a story,
That you were not my prince.
It was all illusion,
Illusion that I can’t see.
I saw you looking at me,
My heart was looking at you.
I saw you eyes,
and felt there was no truth.
You never did
Heard my cries at all.
For falling for you
Again and again once and for all.
Part of me told me to stop,
Where I tried so hard to do so.
I feel so hurt
By the feelings I still have.
But what do I see?
Your hands linked with that girl.
And no it’s no lying,
That girl is not me.
Hmmm.. another s a d one. I must be a really negative person last time. What about now? I dunno. I’ve already chosen to get over him already. I dunno if I have. Deep inside, I still have feelings. But I’m struggling whether to wait for him or not. I dunno for him, but I knew he might just think I wasn’t the right one for him. Because of our distance. But I dunno how I should be feeling. Wait till chances pass by and see what happens. I s i n c e r e l y leave everything to let God decide this ending. Just wait and s e e. Time tells E V E R Y T H I N G. Yer, chosen my pathway. What about you? But I really really want to say is that. Now we are not together. Even if you’ve got a new girl. I also don’t m i n d. But somehow I think that l o v e is not easy to f i n d. If one day, you really found the one, g o for it. And you are truly a n i c e guy (cross my heart). Good bf. You deserve more. Don’t be sad and think ahead like you’ve always taught me. Maybe f r i e n d s is still better for us…
Good luck.