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listening - Jay Chou - Qian Tian
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missing - always the one…
Havent blog for a few days… yup. My computer problem again. Ever since I’ve changed to broadband, there’s many many problems. Something wron with me again today. Really, I had enough of this stress already. I knew that I failed my EPW today. I sure did. And my computer is having virus… the trojan horse one. I had an injection for that filling in my teeth at the dentist too.
Exams coming soon… feeling stress. Dunno how to cope. Today, I talked to Trishy. Well, she said she’s going to city tmr with Fuzzy, for their anniversary. I said I was going out shopping too. Yer, getting my hair piece tomorrow. Cost $30!! Expensive… but wad can I do. 2 more weeks, we’ll have Kalamunda. Dunno why I’m working so hard for everything for. No point.
Yer,bakc to talking to Trishy… then I dunno where it came from, but I just suddenly said, “I miss Fredric…” I was daydreaming. Then Trishy said… “Aww.. reeny, dun worry…” I’m not worrying. Just feeling insercure. Dunno how I’m like now. Missing him more and more these days. Cant describe bahx. I cant control my thoughts esp recently when there’s so many stress and ppl giving me hard times. My marks going up and down, so is my mood. Then Trishy asked if I was going to Singapore. Problem is I dunno. I dun wan to. Not now. Then she said, no matter what I’ll have to go with her end of Year 12. Means, the end of next year. And I can’t believe that I actually promised her. Cant escape it now….
Anyway, got many homework during this weekend. Have to study harder now. Got timetable for my exams… and I dun have to go to school on that Tuesday of exam week. Aiyo… I’m confused now. Tomorrow going shopping. I got $80. Cuz I get $200 for studying. And I gave $100 to my sister to buy hp. And $20, $10 for each of my sis. Well, sharing is caring. Haha. No, my mom asked me to do that. But I didnt whined. Oh well, I’m a generous person.
Rose day is coming. Dunno what that means to people. But we get to buy a rose for $2. You can give to someone with a message in school. Didnt think of buying any. Cuz, I’m not rich. Tomorrow will have to spend money on many things…
Getting more and more inconfident with myself… but. till now I still kept the ring and I happen to look at it today. Daydreaming again. I was telling myself, believing that he would come for me… dunno. In my mind, I kept thinking, is it? Or is he not? Confident or not confident. Decide!!