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Aiyo… my brain is gonna burst manx!! Lols. My parents asking me so many questions… problem about buying phone… and the optus simcard. -_-” Oh well. My day isn’t interesting at all today. Feeling lazy and tired. Sneezing so much.
Last night, I couldn’t get to sleep. It’s was so terrible. I kept thinking about things… things in my mind… flashing up the memories. I dunno why I’m always thinking… about the past. And wondering about so many things. Scaring myself… I guess that I’m a person who really misses the past me. Do I? Not sure. Manx… so confused. Holidays are driving me crazy. Everyday is so BORING! Argh… nothing to do.. manx. But school is worse. Homework, assignments… Geez, living in reality is so… stress! Always thinking how to be a btter person, always trying to do somehting that makes life better, but… never really think about what is the aim in life.
Recently, I’m feeling really stressed out. Esp at start of this year. Firstly was so many things that I was unable to put down and let go of. That leads me to depression. Real big depression. Secondly is the start of school, having to be quickly in studying and more concentrated. That really freaks me out. It stressed me out even more. And I was having mood swings all the time. I was sometimes either extremely sad, or extremely happy. Things really changed alot for me, and something has been pushing me to get used to it.
This morning, I had a reluctance to get out of bed, cuz it was so comfortable for me. I enjoying being lazy this morning. But something esle kept in my mind. I thought it would be better for me to stay more in lala land, than in reality. Sometimes, I just have a strong feeling not to face anything. Last week of school gave me that feeling, too. Stress heavy work. Tests, reminders of exams. A sudden spot test, pops up. It can juz give u a big shock sometimes. And the stupid blue shirters in my school. They are noisy, annoying, naughty, out of control, immature and pervertic! Ok, shall not talk about the pervertic part, but they have all been splashing water everywhere with that stupid water bottle the canteen is selling. I really dun find those bottle fascinating at all. They have been running around like headless chickens, screaming their heads off. I find those girls even more annoying. I wouldn’t actually go and splash water at anyone, esp guys to get attention, and when they are all wet, they would hug the guy. What kind of attitude is this? So I have to say that, most of the blue shirter (I only said most, not all) in our school are attention seekers.
Oh fine, shouldn’t get too angered at all these things. Really tired of all this crap I get from the blue shirt I guess. I even told some of them off.. I really dont see the point in this, but at least I get some of my anger out. Ok, anger section ends here.
Soo… what was I talking about before? Hmm, forget it. Oh, I got my broadband today. It’s relaly handy. Fast. Ok, I’ll stop here. Dunno what to write anymore.
Take care everyone!! Weather’s changing violently, so take good care of your health. Dont get sick, like me. )=