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i really miss him… recently i dunno wad happen to me. really felt like gonna go crazy soon. lately, i have tests and homework. juz felt very uncomfortable about some things. i think im going to be sick too. i dunno wad kind of sickness. flu as in sick? too much stress, homework sick? or missing him love sick?
these days are a torture. juz simply torture. dunno wth is wrong with my life. juz missing something all the time. although i though i should have got used to it.. but i guess time juz kept passing by so much that i didnt have time to think about things myself. so many stress around me. facing this and that. i was glad that im having a long weekend. getting away from all the stress. but there is always something that kept me stress. homework. i have been having terrible mood swings recently. esp at my sisters. so many things to do. but no time to say anything. i dunno why i came online eariler today. temptation i guess.
i dunno how to describe my feelings now.. probably by the song [f.i.r - revolution]. and i juz dl a few songs. now feeling hungry… havent eaten lunch yet. gonna go eat now. juz finished a bit of homework. tml gonna continue on more of my homework. esp my physics and dance theory.
feeling tired. but cant slp. i slp at 12 somehting last night. becuz i came home late from my aunt’s house. i felt realy really insulted by…. arh. nvm. and i have no appetite last night too. i ate so little and im full already. dunno why.
i really miss him alot… dunno wad i am going to do for the rest of the days. life cant get any better unless he is by my side. dunno how i should feel now. dunno if im coming online tonight again or not. cuz my mom sure nag at me and say that i use too much computer. need a life. cant always go on the computer. yer, everyone have their own life. cant always hide at home and look at the computer. but if there is something better in life, there would be no point in going on the internet. becuz reality is already good enough. why is so many ppl going on the internet looking for friends? it’s juz another leisure time to make friends and go away from reality.
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