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arhh… got sunburn. hehe. yup. it hurts. i only realieased it when i was in the shower… the water hitted on the skin and felt a bit… feeling of burn. and now, it leaves my skin with these reddish spots and some tanned on my arms. but none on my face. lols.
today was quite busy. hmm.. well, i slp late last night. at about 12? yups. i mean thats the time i went to bed. but i didnt know what time i actually slp. i was pretty tired though. i guess i slp faster than i though. and i woke up this morning… at… 10.45am. lols. lazy bum. haha. well, i didnt intend to wake up… until my mom told me to. so i woke up. i have no mood in the morning… cuz i was missing fredric. and i was thinking about lots of things. i really miss him. alot.
well, then i was doing my homework… didnt get to finish it. cuz i helped mom with some work. and had to go out to do it. thats why i got sunburn. hehe. i was walking around the estates for almost 2 hours… it was tiring. but pretty sufficent. at least i got to do something. i didnt want to make my mom angry again. well, everything that is happening now… i leave it all to fate. and only that, i would be able to loosen myself. loosen my life. i mean… i just dun wan to think too much about everything… i still miss him. but there’s no use thinking about what is going to happen within this 4 years right? well, just let it be. and if we are meant to be… we will be together no matter what.
so.. i came home.. and continue to do my homework. then i got stuck on a question… so, i came online for a while to search for some info. hmm.. i was missing him. and i decided to take a rest and look at his blog. saw his blog entry. felt sad… cuz he miss me too. and i really cant do anything to make him feel better. but i miss him too. lots! not just a little. alot. well, then i remember i downloaded that song ysd he was trying to send me [luo zhi xiang - mei you ni] so… i decided to listen to it. cuz i didnt get to listen to it properly laz night when it was so noisy… when i heard it… i dunno y… just like it was telling me something… then suddenly… tears kept coming in again. i guess i missed him alot.
then i turn off the computer to finish up my homework. ate dinner and shower… then watch tv. hmm… i miss him a lot.
well… the other day, my mom was asking me about fredric… again. yup. not that it is annoying or anything. but i guess it was quite funny when i talk about him with my mom. ya… she was asking me what school he is studying… and what course he is taking… things like that. then she told me… that he doesnt have to be smart or intelligent or anything. but… my mom’s requirement is… ahaha. sounds freaky huh. yer, i was a bit confused on the spot too…. i was wondering if i was the one who is having a bf or her…. haha. but anyway. her requirements to be my bf was…. hardworking and being able to take care of me, and family and etc. emm… sounds simple. but i guess it was the truth she was telling me. not like hinting about something esle. but she should say that to… fredric.. not to me…. lol
and guess what?! Haha… well, one of my older schoolmate in Merredin… her name is Joanna. well, she helped me find my way around my first day of shooling in australia. really nice. she is now… 18 i think. she had just given birth to a baby! wow. takes lots of courage. well, thats what mom told me about. cuz our family knew them. hehe. the baby is now 2 months old… hmm. i do feel happy for her… but i guess 18 years old is still to young…. yups. but i feel happy that she feel happy and very fortunate.
okie, thats all for now…. hehe i dun wan to be too naggy. and yes, i have realieased that my entries are getting longer and longer.
fredric… i miss u… i love u…
`listening - s.h.e - gei wo duo yi dian
`feeling - moody… not really. but feel something inside my heart blocking… dun feel too good.
`missing - fredric… always missing him…
`wanna - see fredric. and nv leave him again…
`learnt - nv go out for 2 hours without putting on any sunscreen.