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So many whys. I dunno what to say. So many questions that will only bring me to tears. But I can tell you, crying doesn’t help.

Francess, I wanna tell u. But I dun have to courage to reply your email. I dunno what to say to you. I cant finish the letter. You are asking me why. I dunno. I dunno why myself. What can I say besides the endless sorrys that you don’t like to hear? What can I do beside saying sorry to you. I really can’t say anything. Cuz I’m not worth. Maybe I really dunno how to handle this. But I juz dun know. Dun ask me, I dunno. I’ve nv though of the past because what esle can it do? My friend said to me once “Never look back, look forward” I guess I dont wan to hurt anyone again. But if being concern can deserve a scolding, I really dunno what to say. I’m trying to face the past. But I know, I can’t. Sorry is all I can say. Maybe in the first place, I shouldnt ask and know anything. I should juz keep quiet from now on.

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Ok.

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I dunno what to say. You have all your whys, but can you leave me some space and let me ask why.

-listening .
-feeling.
-missing. } blank. empty.
-wanna.
-learnt.