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I am thinking. Really thinking. Of wad u said juz now.

One side is my family.. one side is you. Which one? It’s a really big decision to make. For me. It’s easily said than done. I really can’t decide. Maybe not now. I really really dunno. But I’ll think about it.

Gees. Making decisions is really difficult! Well, plz dun ever leave me decisions like this. I’ll freak out. Really freaked out. Erhs.

Well. Ok lets not get too serious on this. Erms. Hehe. Can I ask ppl really this.. Is it really so difficult to say I love you to someone in real life? Well, I’ve never tried it b4. But is it really so difficult? Ok. Lols.

So anyway… Christmas is over. Erhs. Today feel especially. Erms. Emotional. Dunno? When I’m sitting here, singing a sad song. Lols. It sounded so sad! And no happy songs sounds happy at all. Juz like what happened to me last time. Well, dunno why.

Well, anyway. Sometimes, I think. Think about what this world provides. Can a person feel happier without love or hate? If someone doesn’t love nor hate. What would the world become? A plain boring place I guess. But everyday is plain and boring already. Erm. There’s so many conflicts around. Not including personal relationships, there’s natural diasters, self-harm, and many other scary things that we have never ever thought would happen to us. Well, can I ask. What would you do if the world was to end tomorrow? Would anyone still cares about their status? Whether they are poor or rich. Whether they are young or old. Whether they are happy or sad. I really don’t know. For me, life is what as it is. It is better to accept than to try and improve I guess, sometimes. We never know what will happen the next minute. Just like the earthquake that hit Asia not a while ago. If the world is perfect, we wouldn’t need fortune tellers to come and tell us what would happen next.

Conclusion? No. I have no idea what I’m talking about. Just a thought and some mixed feelings. I felt that the identity in everyone seemed to be labeled. Don’t label yourself. Because whatever you do. You are still human being. There’s no difference. At all.

][listening][s.h.e - Yes I love you.][
][feeling][erhs. confused.][
][missing][him][
][wanna][wryte a song abt my feelings.][
][learnt][absolutely nothing.][

Leo.. is barking.. continuously. I dunno why he never gets tired. Well, cuz… my brat cousin is here. Kekes. Well, weird enough, Leo barks to her the most and with the firecest barks. Ever wonder why? Erms.. dunno. Well. Today Leo wet me again. He was trying to shake the water off himself when I was bathing him.. -_-”

Last night.. it was really windy. I could hear the wind blowing.. itz a really errie sound. But anyways.. I slp at about 1++ am. Cuz I was watching Tv. Well..I was wryting in my diary. And then I heard this buzzing sound on my ears. Kept hearing it. -_-” Kekes. It was a mosquito. Arh. so I tried to get rid out of. But it kept buzzing in my ears. Annoying. Then I was preparing to go to bed. But I scare it will bite me. Erhs. Suddenly no more sound. Missing. So I sorta moving around in my room and shake the clothes and curtain. Well.. no sign of it. Ok then. I turn off the lights..

Yays. Dreaming tyme.. Lols. But I CANT get to slp! Well.. the mosquito came to disturb me again. In the dark. “Buzz. Buzz.” So annoying. Ok I had enough. Turn to the other side.. I guess the mosquito cant see with the lights off? Ok, I was wrong. It actually came and buzz in my ears again. -_-” Ok…. finally got used to the buzzing sound. Gonna go to slp already.. I heard someone laughing.. So I sorta freaked. Hey. It’s the next door neighbour. Well.. I guess celebrate. And the music’s on.. blah blah.

Finally.. slpt. Woke up at about 10am. Wasnt tired anymore. But the mosquito bit me on my face. Ok. I knew it. -_-” Arh. Fine. Erhs. Then watched Tv. So boring! Then bathe Leo and stuff.. Thats all I guess.

Hehe.. miss u~~ Muackiex