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hie. Emm.. today another day. But today is a bit stressed..
Dis morning.. woke up at 11.30am. Still okay. I remembered about laz nite. When I tok to u. And I remembered wad u said to me. Well. This morning. I went out with my parents to the supermarket. We went to withdraw money. From my account. $1000. Well. For this coming year, I can say it’s gonna be a big diaster to my family. Firstly, finiancial problems. I guess I really have to try and help out. But the thing is I couldnt. Nothing I can really do. But looking at my parents’ face. I can tell.. they are really distressed. There’s still bills outstanding.. and.. next year. I’ll be in Year 11. And the books are really expensive. $300++ . Not including graphics calculator. Emm.. wad am I going to do. I felt so guilty for wanting to go to Singapore. I know my mom let me is because she thinks I really really want to.
Bad news yesterday. When there was phone call coming in. I had to disconnect for a long while. I was sitting near where my mom was talking on the phone. The person who said they wanted to rent our house… he say he dun wan to rent anymore. But this is not the point. The point is.. he might not want to even buy our house anymore. Ok, I really wondered why. But I think this time it’s really the time we have to try and save more money. I remembered the times when we first came to Australia. It was, I thought, the worse times ever. The winter coldness that numbed my feelings. Leaving my country to somewhere totally different. The tears that can’t helped. But now I guess it’s worser. Now, I’m wryting this. Why? Because I couldnt tell anyone about wad’s in me. And it’s difficult to juz keep quiet. I felt really bad. But it the kind of feeling of hopelessness. I remembered King told me once. He said I’m a nice person and God will bless me. I felt really nice that he said that to me. But I really guess, I might not be. But after all I still hope God will bless my family. Even though we have to give in a lot more than ppl thought we would, we still stay close together. And that’s what I call family.
You know, I’ve always thought to myself. I have a really good family. What more could I asked for? My parents don’t smoke, don’t drink and don’t gamble. I don’t often fight with my two sisters. So I guess a little conflict wouldnt hurt? I will go along and go through this obstacle with my family no matter what. It’s my principle. I want to help. Maybe not as in giving money, but giving them encouragement.
Christmas. It’s all about love and thanksgiving. It is the best time to spend the christmas with your family. =) I hope everyone could spend their christmas with their family. Tomorrow, I’m going to my aunt’s house. For a christmas eve’s dinner. Everyone, please have a nice christmas.
-listening ]` the timer on the oven.
-feeling ]` kinda blue.. deep in thoughts.
-missing ]` fredric.. my family..
-wanna ]` go to the courtz and juz shoot. it makes me happy.
-learnt ]` wad esle could i have learnt? family is the best.
I miss u. Really do. Awaiting for the 99th day. Too.