Lazy to bloggy todae…. lol. Tomorrow is new year! Fast. Too fast. Now I’m really feeling excited for going to Singapore already.
Wow today. Erms.. my room is packed with a LOT of stuff to bring to sg. -_-” And still got presents n stuff.. I think I’ll have to think how to fit them all in my suitcase first. Kekes. and wow.. so annoying. Kekes. I was counting about how much money I use… calculator gonna break liao. Kekes. Well, I cant use too much money. Cuz I dun wan to become broke. And somemore I dun wan to waste too much money. Its not mine. Itz my parents.. so.. I muz at least respect their money when I use it.
Well, today I found something. Lols. Its a book of friendship. My friend gave it to me last year. Well.. it was nice reading through it again. Haha. Some r really nice. I remember one.. “Don’t walk in front of me. I may not follow. Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead. Juz walk beside me and be my friend.” Lols. Sweet huh? Yer. And the other one was “Friendship is one heart beating in two bodies.” Erms.. sorta bah. Lols.
Keke. Oh today I went walking around the neighbourhood. Lols. I walked past this house lo. Then his guy wearing sunglasses.. stared at me weird weird de. Lols. Then I quickly walk away. Scary. Lols. And somemore he is like watering the plants. K lar.. maybe I’m juz being too paranoid. Kekes. stop here bah.
[ listening ][ delta goodrem - will u fall for me ]
] feeling ][ arr.. normal. [
[ missing ][ same person =) ]
] wanna ][ arr.. nothing. [
[ learnt ][ eh.. ]
Hello.
Wow.. 2005 is coming. Erms. Wad did I do in 2004? Erms, 2004 I can say.. it’s a bad and good year for me. Cuz I’ve experience bad things but I’ve learnt from my mistakes.
Jan- Skool holidays. Lazy girl. Woke up late every morning. Wondering if I could wake up early when skool holidays end.
Feb- Skool holidays ends! Arh… so many skoolwork. Year 10. Preparation for TEE course, Year 11 and 12. So many skoolwork. Arh, but not that stress. I told myself, okie.. cant b so playful anymore. Muz study harder. Kekekes.
Mar- Work harder, next month.. it’s holidays for a while again. LOL. Waits. Trying to study and study everyday.
April- Bought Leo during holidays. ^___^ Cute doggie!! Erhs. Thats all..
May- Working hard again. But still playful…. still the same. Lazy girl. Lols
June- One more month.. gonna leave Merredin. Awww… will miss my fwends.
July- Holidays. Gonna move to Perth. To thornlie.. So scary!!!! Dun wanna go to a new skool! Sobs.
Aug- My birthday!! Awww… atiah made me a birthday card. Kekes. Sweet. Oh, got mah blue bear too. Studying hard in new skool. Esp my chemistry. Arh.. test test test. Studying studying studying. And bball bball bball. Kekes.
Sep- Heartbrokens month. Lots of crying n sadness. Aww. Okiee.
Oct- Know him. Happy. Trying to forget the past. Trying to work hard.
Nov- Missing someone everyday. Preparing for exams.
Dec- Awaiting for Jan!! to go Singapore. Kekes.
-x-
Ahaa.. today I went to caro. I went there empty handed. Came bk empty handed. But I saw Atiah. She was like “Oh. Hello…” Lols. I saw a big giant grey bear!!! Woa.. hehe.. so kewl. Kekes..
But no money to buy kekes.
-x-
Arh.. hehes. Todae felt happier. I dun wan to think. I dun wan to reply the email. Dun wan to do anything. Cuz no one can make me. Only me can understand myself.
So many whys. I dunno what to say. So many questions that will only bring me to tears. But I can tell you, crying doesn’t help.
Francess, I wanna tell u. But I dun have to courage to reply your email. I dunno what to say to you. I cant finish the letter. You are asking me why. I dunno. I dunno why myself. What can I say besides the endless sorrys that you don’t like to hear? What can I do beside saying sorry to you. I really can’t say anything. Cuz I’m not worth. Maybe I really dunno how to handle this. But I juz dun know. Dun ask me, I dunno. I’ve nv though of the past because what esle can it do? My friend said to me once “Never look back, look forward” I guess I dont wan to hurt anyone again. But if being concern can deserve a scolding, I really dunno what to say. I’m trying to face the past. But I know, I can’t. Sorry is all I can say. Maybe in the first place, I shouldnt ask and know anything. I should juz keep quiet from now on.
-x-
Ok.
-x-
I dunno what to say. You have all your whys, but can you leave me some space and let me ask why.
-listening .
-feeling.
-missing. } blank. empty.
-wanna.
-learnt.
Harlow… there’s still less than 2 weeks before I’m going to Singapore. Wow.. time flies. Erms. I havent really done anything yet actually. But I sorta wryte down the things I have to buy. And some phone numbers to call… and I have to use my nokia 3310. -_-” Lols. nvm bah.. old old lor. Dun care. I cant borrow any fone anyway.
Today I watched this Tv show.. introducting Jap food in Singapore. Lols.. watch until hungry man. Kekes. Last nite, my god bro called. He say he might drive me from Singapore to KL. If not, then I’ll have to take plane liao. Dunno how much the ticket neh.. Erms. And dunno what he is up to. Lols. Cant tell me where he’s taking me.
Arh.. Have a short one today bah. Nothing to sae. My day is boring. I’m waiting for the day to come. To see everyone. Kk. Esp….. kekes. You know lar. Kekes. So.. erms, byebye lor. And have a nice day!!
+ listening . Jolin Tsai - Bu Shuo +
+ feeling . arh.. dunno wad feeling. +
+ missing . ^__^ +
+ wanna . sing out loud loud lol. +
+ learnt . ahh.. +
Erm, dunno what to say. Really dunno what to say already. Now the weather here is windy. And it looks like it’s going to rain heavily.
Got scolding today. *Sighs* Felt really bad. I guess I was wrong in the first place. I was scared okay, and concerned. But then got scolded. Aiya, nvm. Next time, I really won’t be so kaipo liao.
I dunno if this is the holiday mood I’m suppose to be in or not.. whenever I turn on the Tv, everywhere pictures. Dunno if I should felt lucky or sad. *Sighs sighs* Really. God, please help. The people really need your help. Everyone, please continue to pray… pray for the people in the southern Asia.
:: listening : S.H.E - Ai Wo De Zhi Ge ::
:: feeling : sad. ::
:: missing : still him ::
:: wanna : Dunno. cry out loud i guess. i dun wan to held bk the tears. ::
:: learnt : cherish wad i’ve got now. dun regret wad i’ve done ::