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Hi to the people reading this. I’m feeling weird from being uncomfortable last night. Well, I was bored. I feel bored so suddenly. And I could not sleep. So I msged Louise and Francess. Then Francess called me. So I chat with him for a while. Well… he was talking about him running away from his mom at the moment because she wants him to go to England and stop playing around in Malaysia. Then suddenly, he said to me that I should find a bf so whenever I get bored there’s someone there that can accompany me and make me laugh and smile. You know what I replied him? I said I don’t need one. He said that in every girl’s heart, there must be at least 2-4 guys that would fit into the to-be-bf catagory. And I was like thinking… hmmm, like who?! But I stopped thinking. After we hang up, he msged me back and told me that he want me to find a bf is because he still love me and that he wished I could be happier. He gave me his blessings. That was really sweet. But the thing is I’m really not in a mood for this. Finding a bf is not hard. But finding a bf who suits you character and personality etc is very hard. Some people tell me that in this world, a girl is only meant for a guy. And when the time comes, they will meet. But imagine, in such a big big world… where is the love? Haha, in Africa? Lol. And remembering someone else told me that you might be with a guy, but there might be another guy in the other side of the world who you’ll love a million times more than you love your guy now. That’s scary huh? Well, I don’t believe in looking for a guy. But I do believe in letting fate make us find each other. But who am I meant to be? I’m really not sure. The future seemed so clueless to me at the moment. But isn’t that what everyone feels? Even for a 60-year-old lady, life is clueless ahead of her too.
Today. So peaceful in my house without anyone around me. So alone. But I like this peacefulness sometimes. Sometimes I don’t. But today seems weird. Just a normal day. But a weird day. Like the day is going to be so long! I’m not sure why? Anyway, I drew a picture today. Here it is ;
http://photos.friendster.com/photos/28/54/3344582/19950931060747l.jpg
Yer. I mixed a few colours to do the hair and the dress. It looks pretty. But not on the picture because the colours does not stand out. So yer. But I still like it!
So Leanny’s birthday party is today. The wet weather is making me sleepy. Just hope it won’t be too cold tonight. Just hope. Can’t be stuffed bringing a jacket with me. Anyway, I’m feeling a little sick today. Need to find something to eat now. Lols, a little hungry. Hmmm. Feeling a bit bored at the moment too. But I’ll stop here cause there’s nothing much to write.