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mood chocolate-ish + a bit tired
playing ateens * can’t help falling in love
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I can’t find an opening statement. A little tired today. Don’t feel like talking about my day cause it’s boring + tiring. Well, I dunno why I’m tired… but I just am. Kept having a feeling that someone’s watching me from the back. It’s so scary, somehow. But… somehow I just didn’t really bother to look back.
It’s a rainy day today. Walked home in the rain with Atiah. Actually, to Forest Lakes cuz she wanted to buy some junk food. She bought me chocolate! Haha… but my throat isn’t feeling very well. I have a feeling that I’m going to lose my voice again. Please don’t. It would help if I drink more water. xD
Anyway… I’m ultra tired today. Just is. Dunno why. I don’t think I would be able to get out of bed tomorrow morning. Probably have to have a good sleep tonight! Well, I would if I could stop thinking too much about some things… it’s sooo annoying how I think too much before bedtime. Probably, because no one there for me. Haha!! Do I need one anyway? Haha… I dunno. I have decided to leave everything fate I guess. I’m so tired of always searching for happiness myself. Because there’s not always things that are meant to be perfect. Just say everything from the past.
The past… has passed. Just have to treat it as memories. And… start afresh. Right? Leave the past behind. So I’ve decided that tonight, before bedtime, I am going to tidy up my room. Clear away everything. I could put down the ring and stop wearing it. What else can’t I put down? It’s been half a year… maybe I really should put the pictures away and stay away from it until one day when I’m confident in looking at them again without missing him so much. I shall do that. Leave the past behind. Like Emma said, if it didn’t work the first time, why would it work the second time? Some things just couldn’t be given a second chance. Some things… like a relationship.
For now… I’ll start afresh. Searching for my happiness once again. Yups.
Happiness, happiness. Where are you? Haha… I’ll find you no matter what!