I just don’t get it!
I’m raging at the moment so I hope I won’t type anything to offend anyone.
If I do, please please please don’t take it to heart.
I really really really don’t get it. WHY and HOW can some people be so selfish, sometimes without them realising.
I’ve been told many times before that I am too nice to people and that’s why I always get targeted for bullying or being taken advantage of. Or maybe other people think otherwise. I dunno. I don’t stand up for myself very often only because I have a thing inside me called tolerance.
When I was growing up, my Dad had always taught me that I should be patient. Because you get alot of things in return for being patient.
So I always try to please people around me because I tolerant the way people treats me and always tell myself that I will get good karma in return. I still believe in that.
But what happens when people actually get on my nerves?
No, I don’t burst and yell at them unless I’m not angry but upset. But when I have reached my tolerance level, I don’t usually confront the situation. Only because I want peace. I care about how the other person would feel. So I end up typing it here and ranting it all out.
Well, today I just wanted to lose my temper here because something really annoying happened to me. I won’t say what it is but I will tell “you” (if you know that it’s you) WHY I am so pissed off.
I don’t blame you for having “problems” in life and I understand that you treat me as a friend and hence expected me to listen. But have you ever thought about HOW I FELT? I’m merely a friend. I’m not a superwoman. There are limited things I can say and do. I can’t solve your damn problems. If something seriously wrong happened to your life, what am I going to do to fix it?
It’s not gonna work if you keep on driving me up the wall by telling me all your stupid problems. Like I said before, I’m not a superwoman.
For one fact I know, IT IS NOT LIKE IT’S END OF THE WORLD AND GET THE HELL OVER IT!
Seriously, GET OVER IT.
I dunno how to tell you that I can’t say anything to make you feel better because I hate being fake about saying “oh well”. BECAUSE IT’S NOT EXACTLY A BIG DEAL. It isn’t! If you’re gonna get all whingy about such a small thing then WTF.
Deep inside, I wished I could tell you how immature you are. I wished I could ask you to leave me alone and stop mentally torturing me. But I know I still care about you as a friend and I want to continue being your friend. But just because you’re all emo about something, it doesn’t mean that you can use that to make me feel guilty or emo too. Cause I f*ing hate people who do that!
For everyone reading this, I’m sorry that you have to hear this ranting from me and I hope that no one will ask me about this because know how angry I get when someone asked me if I’m talking about them when I’m not.
Once again, I just want to clarify, it’s not that I don’t like talking to depressed people. I love to listen and let you pour your heart out to me BUT in the end, how you treat YOUR LIFE is entirely UP TO YOU. Do me and do yourself a favour, make yourself HAPPIER. Just because something has gone wrong in your life, it doesn’t mean you have to be emo. Morever, PLEASE don’t use what happened in your life to blame me and make me my day feel lousy.
I WANT TO BE A HAPPY GIRL but I can’t be if someone kept on telling me that there’s no reason to be!
Understand?