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Hello out there, whoever reading this.
Dunno how I’m feeling today. Just sorta tired from yesterday since I slept so late. The reason why I slept late was because I was thinking about stuff again. My sister was getting really fed up with me. But who can I talk to…? Talked to him last night. How should I say? Suddenly, felt so inconfident of myself. At first, was a bit scared. And a bit paranoid, I think. But after a while, I thought… maybe it’s my problem. Why did I ever let you feel this way… … thinking why you feel this way. I hope I was by your side whenever you needed me. Sorry I couldn’t be there… Really hoped that I was there. I hope that you won’t think too much. You know, when we both made this decision, we have already been looking ahead. We already known what’s life ahead of us. So the only thing we can do is to accept this, and perhaps, I guess, be brave. To love, to hate. That’s what inside us when we made the choice. To either to love or not to love. So we both chose the same thing. I hope life ahead of us would be smooth, and I hope I would be able to see you soon again… Hopefully, things will go in the right place. As long as we have each other as our hearts, I know that we’ll make it. Right? We will. As we both have said to ourselves all the time… we must have faith. Look how far we’ve been. Been through separation of 1 day, then 1 week, then 1 month, then going to be 1 year. I don’t care how is our ending, but every waiting of this, even if it makes me crazy over you all the time, I won’t regret what I have chosen. Whenever you miss me… whenever you think about the memories… just think and don’t ever feel sad. Because our memories are sweet. And the only memories we shared, no one can ever take them away. It’s our memories. Always keep that in mind okay?
What should I say… Always been trying to tell you lots of things. But I guess I hasn’t got the chance. But this is all from my heart. Things that I guess I hasn’t really told you. Remember our song? “You are all I ever need”? *You are the one I’m dreaming of, I want to spend my lifetime loving you*
- I love you -
~ Listening ~ Angela zhang - Aurora ~
~ Feeling ~ Hmm ~
~ Missing ~ You, always on my mind ~
~ Wanna ~ spend my lifetime loving you ~
~ Learnt ~ New things. New experiences ~