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I don’t know… feels like it’s been a long day today.

Today was a mixture of everything - frustration, peacefulness, hot, depression, crying, smiling, unstable, stable, doubt, fear, argument, promise. Everything goes by so fast that I can’t even keep up. One minute, I’m laughing. One minute, I’m crying. I just hope that I won’t ever have that feeling again. That feeling that my tears are coming out. That feeling that I was hated, not loved and I was being ignored, not pampered.

It’s going through a PMS state. The whole thing. Just ups and downs. Every time when this happens, my heart will ache. I don’t like seeing everything like that. It hurts both. I just wanted to make things the way I want it to be. I don’t want anything between us. I don’t want to argue because of someone else. That’s the last thing that I hope will happen. So far, there’s two. But no more. Not even the previous two. I’ll make sure I do my part and keep away from things like that. I never want this to happen again. I don’t want to be sad like today again. I don’t want to cry like today again.

I want to be happy like how I am when I’m with you. Everything is simple. Everything is just clear. Nothing else will come between us. Right?

HUGS* Let it stay this way. Hope you’re not unhappy with me chucking a sad today. Don’t let this happen again. Esp not the same thing.